Venting Today I should have stayed in bed

[TheFinalCountdown]

I woke up with a terrible feeling today that I can't explain. I force myself out of bed but regretted it every second since I left the house. . Today has been one of the worst days of my life and I've never wanted to die more. I think I should move up my plans

 

[Omega7]

Sorry


Wishing you better days!

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I feel exactly the same way today. Things are just getting worse and worse for me. Im sorry your feeling this way too.

 

[JadedGray]

A lot of people feel more suicidal than ever in the month of April. It seems to have that affect on people... change in season. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_effects_on_suicide_rates
I feel the worse in the spring and summer, but it seems to get a little better in the autumn and winter. Sorry you're feeling this way, it's all too familiar.

 

[whatever1111]

do you the know the song 'the day i tried to live' by soundgarden? it has 'I should have stayed in bed' in lyrics

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

do you the know the song 'the day i tried to live' by soundgarden? it has 'I should have stayed in bed' in lyrics

I've not heard it, I'll give it a listen

 

[JadedGray]

do you the know the song 'the day i tried to live' by soundgarden? it has 'I should have stayed in bed' in lyrics

Great song, all the more sad now. Superunknown and Soundgarden's catalog in general is full of sad foreshadowing or rather they show how depressive and suicidal feelings don't always go away with time and can stay for a lifetime/be a lifelong battle. Great album to listen to when depressed/suicidal, which is everyday to be honest.

This one is eerie now:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8nkHrv_4Mg

PS Sorry for hijacking the thread.

 

[Walilamdzi]

I really struggle with motivation to get out of bed at all these days. Whenever I can, I spend my waking hours in bed completely lacking the will to do anything, browsing this forum.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Unfortunately,... (at about the same point each day), the bed suddenly feels too uncomfortable to stay in any longer and/or hunger/thirst pangs force me up and out.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

"I knew I shouldn't have gotten out of bed today..." - Squidward Tentacles.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that. I too, have woken up feeling shitty at times as well. Sometimes I think it is due to not having a good quality of sleep the night before while other times, it could be due to the stress in the last few days or so. Anyways, I hope you are able to have better mornings in the coming days.

 

[Darkmornings]

Mornings are the worst for me. It's been about a week since I've had a breakdown but usually I'm crying uncontrollably before leaving my house. I'm constantly late to work. I'm looking for a work from home job because I hate leaving my house. I love solitude. Staying in bed is my only solace.

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

I felt the same OP. It was very difficult to get anything done for me as well.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I feel the same way, especially when I have to be around other people. When I'm alone things don't really seem as bad. But when I'm in the presence of others the suicidal ideation returns with vengeance lol.