Discussion To those Actively planning: What are you waiting for?

[Dawn0071111]

I have to get financial affairs in order. Statements. Photocopies. Photo album. Waiting for documents to come in the mail. Need to write Last letters.... I refuse to leave in a sloppy manner & leave undue stress on others in addition to the trauma of my death.

Ugh... still so frustrating though..because I feel like I can't just "up & go" yet...

 

[Itsalmosttime]

To be honest probably plain old cowardice.

I don't want to live but I'm still lacking the final push.

 

[Dawn0071111]

To be honest probably plain old cowardice.

I don't want to live but I'm still lacking the final push.

It will come when it comes if it ever needs to..... I get how it can feel cowardly.... but I dont think of it that way, i would just say your not ready.... no need to rush it..
Glad u r here...

 

[FXBoerQ]

What am I waiting for? Just here... Waiting for the bus....

 

[Raggas]

Waiting to get off my anti-psychotic so I can take meto without there being a reaction (for SN attempt).

 

[Polar_]

I'm just waiting for the courage to finally do it. Or not even courage, just a moment of impulse at the right time.

 

[Lethe]

At the very least, I want to finish college first.

 

[Blackjack]

Waiting for 10/15...

 

[Elias]

My logistics are pretty much settled but I have a couple details to sort out. I made plans with friends during the next couple weeks, and I'd like to spend some time with them. I'm trying to shake off my fear of the unknown and of hell, which I'm beginning to stop internalizing and it's a pretty good thing. I still have a bunch of money I'm trying to burn before I go so I indulge in all my pleasures. Also I'm still debating which songs I'll listen to in my last moments and what exact location is the best; I selected a few but I still have to make a final choice. When I feel like I've done everything and there's nothing to attend to other than my ctb plans, I'll feel ready to go. Oh and also I would ideally die on a rainy day.


@FXBoerQ cheers mate.

 

[Dawn0071111]

O wow, I relate to alot of your logistics. I lst my faith & became athiest throughmy trauma & ptsd, so Im very close yo good with death, i have a little bucket list, and i also am debating which songs... since EB only takes a miute or less to lose consciousness.. please keep us posted, Im sorry for whatever misdortune brought you to this and desire for your safety & peace

 

[GlowingCactus]

I'm currently working on a small project with someone else. I feel like it would be rude of me to let him finish it alone, making him go through unnecessary stress to meet the deadline.

 

[kerolox]

The condition of my health has been slowly deteriorating for years so I guess I'm just waiting for it to get so uncomfortable that I stop putting it off.

 

[lovemelovemenot]

Mainly for my family to be in a better situation financially than they are now, and kinda just seeing if my attitude changes about my decision overtime. Most days I feel like it's the inevitable though.

 

[Astral316]

I can't get the goods for SN sent to where I reside currently. Also, I may or may not want to wait until I can get off the anti psychotic I'm on.

 

[kiwi sensei]

I'm giving my stuff away but I didn't want to give everything at once cause it'll drag so much attention.
I'm also waiting for the right opportunity ._.

 

[Rachel74]

I can't go yet and I know that now so you'll have to put up with me x

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Getting to my apartment where I can order SN I guess...
I don't want to do that in this country where I have old name and don't want to burden airbnb hosts.

 

[erehbus]

For that little thread to snap again... When it used to happen, I did not have anything into place, and I failed miserably (during mu teen years). Now I plan so I can't fail when it happens. I am hoping to make another year and a half, but would not mind if it happened tomorrow.

 

[JTG1972]

I need to get hold of supplies and think about what to write in a letter. I don't want to implicate my wife—I want to be sure she's spared any trouble if she happens to touch anything that might incriminate her if she's the one who finds me. (Don't want to do a video, I know she'd watch it and I worry it would disturb her even more.)

I also told her I would consider therapy so I guess waiting to see if we can afford that/if I can stomach it.

 

[shango]

I'm waiting to get out of the place I'm at right now so I can access SN easier

 

[Bruceleelives1969]

Scared to do it. Survival Instinct too stong. Also I have a 12 year old daughter

 

[9137890]

Just waiting to find a secret place.

 

[ComradeA]

When I'm feeling rational: My parents have recently split up so I'm giving it a bit of time so they don't blame themselves. My brother has also recently gone away to uni and I don't want to ruin his first few months there with news of his sister dying. When I'm having a bad night and just wanna do it already: I want to do it right this time and that means I can't do it on impulse (My method of choice takes some prep), and I've got a few things coming up this month I'm looking forward to.

 

[a.h]

I have to get financial affairs in order. Statements. Photocopies. Photo album. Waiting for documents to come in the mail. Need to write Last letters.... I refuse to leave in a sloppy manner & leave undue stress on others in addition to the trauma of my death.

Ugh... still so frustrating though..because I feel like I can't just "up & go" yet...

Great. :) Though for me just emptying most of the staff I own but which don't have much value would be more than enough.
I can tell from experience that going through family members house and things is not nice. The more they have, more challenging the task is after the loss. No matter how great things people think they own relatives will usually keep just new electronics and valuable antiques at most. They have own pictures etc. of their relative.

If deceased one had lots of easyly sold things then relatives could sell the whole staff there is. Some people buy the whole ownings of deceased ones and sell them as their job.

 

[Godofdeathftw]

I wanna try MDMA before I die, and want Xanax to help me stay chill after taking the SN. I'll hopefully be getting both today

 

[Lilith81]

Waiting to get off my anti-psychotic so I can take meto without there being a reaction (for SN attempt).

What is the reaction? I'm on abilify. Do I have to go off of it to take meto?

 

[Norway]

Dont know, life just goes by

 

[AsexualBarbieBoy]

I couldn't do it despite having the Sn and antiemetics. I need to figure out how to overcome SI and I'm gone.

 

[Erin Inari]

Waiting for an opportunity at this point.

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

My health is deteriorating. Just trying to work up the nerve to do it.