RetroChaos
Still heartbroken.
- Dec 21, 2021
- 79
I'm sorry. Even if this is all you read I'm sorry. If this is all the pigs give to you let it be known I'm sorry. I never ever wanted to hurt you or cause you distress. You are the love of my life and I'll mean that forever. I cannot live on without you or knowing you hate me. All ever wanted was to make you happy and provide the best life for us. And I'm sorry if that came off as harsh or rude or that I didn't love you. I know I was always shit at being there for you, or showing how I felt, or just being decent person. I was going through addictions and bad things and you shouldn't have dealt with all that when we were just young teens. It should've been 10 years today. I wanted to present you with tickets to Japan, to then propose to you outside the castle at Disneyland Sea when we made it out there. I wish it could be different. I don't ever want to love again, or find someone else. You are perfect to me, and I ruined it all. I really cannot go on without you. Just to hear your voice again or for you to just talk to me would mean everything. But I know that would never happen, and that breaks my heart. It's better if I'm just not around to bother or bring you anymore distress. And for selfish reasons, I just can't deal with the thought of you moving on, even if I just want you to be happy. I'm sorry I ruined it all. I really am. Please believe and know that. I should've been the man to give you the world, but I only caused you harm and trouble. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I love you, forever and always.