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nextstepdeath
Student
- Sep 5, 2024
- 129
To lose everything you could have had. To be told you can get something out of life by staying alive, even when you've lost everything, any kind of spark for life has been extinguished and you are told meaningless platitudes like 'the body changes in all sorts of ways' 'sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to get better' 'once you have gone down you can only go up' - sometimes you never stop going down. I live in a country where mental health services are guided and run by people who have no life experience and yet you are forced to put your life in their hands, you are forced to accept them pushing you into things that are a threat to your health and your life in external ways, I can't cope with the chaos, I hate the way I have spilled myself out in public, screaming and shouting in places and ways that have completely shattered my reputation and humiliated me as a human being where people are just laughing at me. I can't cope with my head, I feel like Casper, a friendly kid who died but is just a spirit seeing everyone around him trying to bring him back to life but it can't be done, I'm already dead