to live or to die

[misatosdiary]

Hey to whoever is reading this,

how have you dealt with being torn between those two worlds? I cannot decide and I will never know for sure, but honestly just waiting any longer seems cruel. Life isn't enjoyable but is death worth it? I've been waiting for years and it hasnt gotten any better, I'm just so bored. I dont enjoy existing and don't want to pursue it, the idea of ctbing is scary though. I have tried before and failed, now, over a year later, I ask myself once again.

 

[Esedia]

Boredom can be fixed. Death cannot.

 

[SVEN]

I continue to deal with it as long as my partner & elderly dog, both of whom love and depend on me to care for them, need me.