Story To everybody who commented on my previous post:

[Finalnight]

This is the message I wrote back considering all of you, I'm posting it again to let you know you didn't just go unnoticed by me. First of all, I would like to say that I'd wish I could reply back to each of you individually, but my mind is so fucked up I can barely write or say what I want to express, most of the time it takes me hours to formulate something that makes any sense. Having said that, this was what I wrote.

"I've read all your replies. All I can say is that I'm really grateful for all the love and kind words you've written to me, you people are great, and do not deserve having gone through whatever that has brought here. What I said about not feeling welcome is because I never really feel welcome, no matter where, it's just that I've been feeling so awful lately that I needed some place to vent since I have nowhere else to do it. It's true that I have been mistreated by a few people at pms, but I know they're just a very small percentage of the forum which doesn't represent it in any way, whenever I open any posts all I see is supportive and compassionate people helping one another, and that's how this community really is, and how I really see it regardless of how I could feel. Once again, thanks to everyone for your replies, this means too much to me, you guys are epic and deserve the best, always…"

In addition to this, I want to let you know you can count on me whenever you're in need of venting or talking to somebody, maybe I won't be able to say much, but if you pm me I will try my best to make you feel better. You are the reason I've regained a bit of hope from this world, and I never thought that would come from people unknown to me.

I don't know what else to add, I just hope you're feeling and continue to feel the best you can, and that I wish you the best in every way.

 

[NocturnILL]

This was so nice of you
You are seen and we hear you. It's ok, a lot of us have a hard time expressing ourselves the way we'd want. No rush and no pressure, take your time. I'm happy that you received as much support as you did and even more happy you felt it. I hope you continue to stick around as long as you want and know you have safe supportive place.
May you continue to find your bits of hope and exactly what you need

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

There are lots of really nice people on this forum and you are one of them.

 

[D1byRam3n]

That's so nice of you for being care at everyone here but remember don't get carried away so easily...

 

[gbi2]

but my mind is so fucked up I can barely write or say what I want to express, most of the time it takes me hours to formulate something that makes any sense. Having said that

100% with you on that. I probably type and then delete 90% of my posts anywhere I visit. Sometimes I'll realise I've been typing one for a few hours but haven't even compiled anything useful.

Even an email I sent a while back, I reread after the recipient asked if they could forward it and it is an absolute mess. I'm sure they only asked to forward it because they can't make head nor tail of what I am saying and are just hoping someone else will. The points I tried to make will be missed, a rebuttal will be made that doesn't address what the issue is because that point was missed and I'll be left with people thinking even worse of me than before I wrote the email.

 

[SVEN]

The group is great for venting on, mostly because we're all in this together, m8. Sometimes we get so frustrated and excited we just scream out online, and this is a safe "screaming room".

 

[NocturnILL]

this is a safe "screaming room".

I love this

 

[kilowatt]

There are lots of really nice people on this forum and you are one of them.

This is truly one of the best compliments I've seen on here.