Discussion To anyone planning to CTB soon, how do you cope with death?

[PurrpTypeFeel]

I'm extremely afraid of death, the eternal cessation of all that I know is something that is extremely hard to confront, but as I've figured out, the easiest and happiest way for me to live would be to CTB, of course we all have to go eventually, but it's worrying when it happens this soon, and it puts me into a lot of stress, I'm worried if I ever consume SN, in the few minutes it would take to go I would just be panicking at how insanely scary what I just did is. Anyone else in the same boat? And if anyone's gotten over their fear of death, I would really like tips on how to do the same

 

[outrider567]

I'm extremely afraid of death, the eternal cessation of all that I know is something that is extremely hard to confront, but as I've figured out, the easiest and happiest way for me to live would be to CTB, of course we all have to go eventually, but it's worrying when it happens this soon, and it puts me into a lot of stress, I'm worried if I ever consume SN, in the few minutes it would take to go I would just be panicking at how insanely scary what I just did is. Anyone else in the same boat? And if anyone's gotten over their fear of death, I would really like tips on how to do the same

I only got over my fear of death after my girlfriend of 35 years died last year, no reason to live anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never feared death, in fact I've always found the thought of non existence to be something that is so incredibly comforting. There is no point to fearing death as we are all destined to die, and at that point we just won't exist. Non existence is ideal, as if one no longer exists they cannot suffer, they have no problems and they cannot be harmed by anything.

Life in itself is the true problem which is solved by death, as long as one exists there is no relief from suffering, instead the thing that I fear is life itself as this world is so hellish with unlimited potential for us to be tortured. All that is inevitable in life is suffering, loss and decay, to die prevents all this, so therefore I always see it as being preferable to cease existing. There are no disadvantages to not existing.

 

[Galileo3630]

I'm extremely afraid of death, the eternal cessation of all that I know is something that is extremely hard to confront, but as I've figured out, the easiest and happiest way for me to live would be to CTB, of course we all have to go eventually, but it's worrying when it happens this soon, and it puts me into a lot of stress, I'm worried if I ever consume SN, in the few minutes it would take to go I would just be panicking at how insanely scary what I just did is. Anyone else in the same boat? And if anyone's gotten over their fear of death, I would really like tips on how to do the same

All of this completely normal, it simply sounds like your Survival instinct is kicking in and trying to reason with you to not CTB. I'd consider this as a sign that it isn't yet your time to go and the universe is forcing your body to put up these high walls. It has something for you it seems like.

Other than that, it's absolutely normal to fear the unknown, after-all, we fear the dark and it's not that we fear that it's dark, we fear what's in the dark or after it.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

the eternal cessation of all that I know is something that is extremely hard to confront,

But that's the best part

 

[rocking28]

I was planning on hanging myself tonight or tomorrow, but I had the strangest dream or vision of seeing the birth of my daughter just the night before. And I don't have kids or a wife or anything so idk if it's my body telling me to wait. And it's been weeks since I last remembered a dream I had that was so vivid.

 

[MrShino]

I know many people went past their fear of death with psychedelics. Ex. terminal ill cancer patients found great relief for their fear of death and end of life-acception. Eventually it will happen, so why fear it. It's just the mind creating all sorts of scenarios, just because it is mostly unknown. I can encourage reading alot of NDE-stories, that shows what people actually experience; joy, freedom, love in almost every case. There's no need to be afraid, it's just a chapter in your journey ending.

 

[leavingsoon99]

By understanding that it's inevitable. There's no sense in fearing what is as natural to existence as is breathing. WE. ARE. GOING. TO. DIE. Nothing is going to change that. So, why fear it? Especially when you measure it against what we're currently experiencing. Life is literally hell. It's just that most people have been conditioned to like it. That's why they fear it. And we can go into all sorts of reasons as to why humans, particularly in the modern western world, have taught themselves to fear death to the point of actually making a mission out of suicide prevention. As if to say there's a 'human sanctioned' way to die. A 'right way' to die. This is mostly idiocy that is rooted in western fear, ignorance, and religious superstition. So, I just comfort myself by understanding that death is coming anyway. I can't change that. In fact, I'm one of the people who are about to jump headfirst into it. I'm looking forward to it. I'm not even worried about the price of pain that life charges for it. If that's the toll for leaving this hellscape, I'm more than happy to pay it. I just hope I don't vegetable myself. I'm pretty confident in my method and my knowledge of it now. There's nothing to fear about death.

 

[ThisIsLife]

I only got over my fear of death after my girlfriend of 35 years died last year, no reason to live anymore

I lost my 15yo only child 4 months ago. I know there's nothing that could make me live longer than the end of next month.

 

[outrider567]

I lost my 15yo only child 4 months ago. I know there's nothing that could make me live longer than the end of next month.

I'm so sorry

 

[orca87]

To me death itself comes with no fear. It's doubt in a way. This decision is final. There is no way back.

Therefore, I'm afraid of dying. Afraid that it might be painful, afraid that my last thought is regret because of SI.

When it's done, there will be nothing. Why would I care about nothing?

Fear of death is fear of missing out. Is there something that could still happen, that I still could achieve? That one person that I still could meet? To me, there is no hope that anything good enough to make me happy could happen. And if it would've happened but I'm dead? Well then I would have exchanged some hedonistic moments for eternal peace.

 

[TAW122]

I cope with the fact that all the suffering (and potential pleasure) will come to an end. I know that one day I will (and all human beings) face death at some point in time, some sooner, some later, some by their own hand, most by other causes. Also, everyday alive is a gamble and (almost) everyone is just one disaster away from making their life more miserable than it currently is. Even those who enjoy life (the prolifers) are not immune to catastrophe, be it accidents, disasters, disease, illness, and other causes of harm. Non-sentience (death) will avoid all fates, even if the cost of missing out future (potential) pleasure, that is a price I'm willing to pay.

 

[my-end]

I'm extremely afraid of death, the eternal cessation of all that I know is something that is extremely hard to confront, but as I've figured out, the easiest and happiest way for me to live would be to CTB, of course we all have to go eventually, but it's worrying when it happens this soon, and it puts me into a lot of stress, I'm worried if I ever consume SN, in the few minutes it would take to go I would just be panicking at how insanely scary what I just did is. Anyone else in the same boat? And if anyone's gotten over their fear of death, I would really like tips on how to do the same

Never thought I was afraid of death until I tried, SI is strong. I've been working on conditioning myself. Telling myself I'm terminally ill and it's just time, there's nothing I can do to stop it. Couple that with repeating why life is so bad as a daily practice and .....well we'll see. I'm definitely closer. There are days where I think I could move on with life but I know it's only temporary, and it is, so that further reinforces the desire to ctb. I practice the act mentally, more every day now. I imagine myself letting go and being at peace.

 

[wait-bus-stop]

I try to embrace it as the next step and start a process of saying good bye, which I have begun.

 

[William01]

Never thought I was afraid of death until I tried, SI is strong. I've been working on conditioning myself. Telling myself I'm terminally ill and it's just time, there's nothing I can do to stop it. Couple that with repeating why life is so bad as a daily practice and .....well we'll see. I'm definitely closer. There are days where I think I could move on with life but I know it's only temporary, and it is, so that further reinforces the desire to ctb. I practice the act mentally, more every day now. I imagine myself letting go and being at peace.

I can so relate to that!!! I have SN and got meto by accident from GP for migraine and have benzos... trying to prepare myself.. telling myself life will never get better, its like this and more pain and hurt awaits me.

 

[speck]

I'm concerned with the process of dying, because I'm scared that I will fail - but I'm not worried about being gone. I think it's important to remind myself that the suffering is supposed to end and that I'm making the choice to end it- I don't have to wander around lost and in pain anymore. I remind myself that I'm not able to make it alone, I tried a couple times and I clearly don't know how to survive and I'm better off this way. It's been painful to realize that I am not valuable to others in my life, but I have to remember that this will be useful to them- to remove myself and stop burdening them. This is what I can do to be useful, I've known this for 20 years that I was meant to die. I fought too long. Additionally, I have recently realized that I may have a serious health issue and this will remove the uncertainty of recovery.

 

[hellispink]

I have never feared death. I have always been a very dark weird person. Since I was 11, I wanted to die already. And i have even seen gore and everything and I just do not feel anything related to being dead. Death feels like nothing. Do you remember anything before you were born? No right? Being death is nothingness. There aint regrets there aint any fear there is absolutely nothing. There is nothing at all to fear . The process maybe because the body has a biologically process that is weird? Maybe but you be dead and one can ask for cremation direct cremation if one is scared of the long lengthy process of discomposing.

 

[Unattainable666]

I'm extremely afraid of death, the eternal cessation of all that I know is something that is extremely hard to confront, but as I've figured out, the easiest and happiest way for me to live would be to CTB, of course we all have to go eventually, but it's worrying when it happens this soon, and it puts me into a lot of stress, I'm worried if I ever consume SN, in the few minutes it would take to go I would just be panicking at how insanely scary what I just did is. Anyone else in the same boat? And if anyone's gotten over their fear of death, I would really like tips on how to do the same

I look at it this way. I'm going to die someday anyway. I don't want to be old and unable to wipe my own ass. I don't want to lose my eyesight or the ability to move around. I don't want to be in an accident and unable to ctb on my own. I've not been able to live my life the way I wanted I am determined to die the way I want. Just my thoughts.

 

[Toriinbed]

I look at it this way. I'm going to die someday anyway. I don't want to be old and unable to wipe my own ass.

I agree. One of my worst fears is growing old because I don't want to experience slowly decaying. I would rather have a choice in when I want to ctb . I think other people usually fear the pain and unknown after death, but I got over because knowing the pain will end soon and not believing in a heaven or hell helped me.

 

[Unattainable666]

I agree. One of my worst fears is growing old because I don't want to experience slowly decaying. I would rather have a choice in when I want to ctb . I think other people usually fear the pain and unknown after death, but I got over because knowing the pain will end soon and not believing in a heaven or hell helped me.

I agree completely. I think the people who believe in heaven and hell are the ones who are afraid to die. I believe I will see my daughter when I leave this shitty world.

 

[szk]

I cope with it by drawing it out. I sketch out all my feelings to properly process how I feel about it. It doesn't help me fully but it helps me release the stress of the situation.

 

[Endoflifecomestoall]

I'm concerned with the process of dying, because I'm scared that I will fail - but I'm not worried about being gone. I think it's important to remind myself that the suffering is supposed to end and that I'm making the choice to end it- I don't have to wander around lost and in pain anymore. I remind myself that I'm not able to make it alone, I tried a couple times and I clearly don't know how to survive and I'm better off this way. It's been painful to realize that I am not valuable to others in my life, but I have to remember that this will be useful to them- to remove myself and stop burdening them. This is what I can do to be useful, I've known this for 20 years that I was meant to die. I fought too long. Additionally, I have recently realized that I may have a serious health issue and this will remove the uncertainty of recovery.

What kind of serious health issue is it you may have I'd you don't mind me asking?