Story Tired

[Deleted member 15256]

Hi! I am new here. Gonna talk a little about me.
I've always been a sensitive person. But that used to be something I liked about myself.
Three years ago a bad experience triggered memories I had and everything came apart. My life, the happiness I used to feel, my tolerance to the ugly part of the human being... On top of that I got my heart broken, lost the ability to work and got in a major depression.
I put myself back, just to be beaten again and again.
Now I'm just so tired. And I believe it's ok to rest when life comes to this.
Except for the people I love, I can't see anything worthy. And even they will be better without me.
Tired of people envying others happiness, people who thinks it's ok to ruin someone's dreams, tired of lies and injustice. I just need to rest.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Welcome, I get what you say about being tired, and I'm sorry you're going through this. Have you sought help about all your problems?

 

[Deleted member 15256]

Welcome, I get what you say about being tired, and I'm sorry you're going through this. Have you sought help about all your problems?

Thank you for understanding.
I am on meds and doing therapy. But I know the speech of the therapists by heart. It doesn't get better.
Ctb is the only thing that brings me hope these days. This forum is very helpful, I just realized that I can buy sn in my country - I thought was impossible. And I am starting to plan my way out

 

[LostAllHope7651]

It's so sad that most people's story on here is relatable... life does get tiring and I know exactly how you feel, we build ourselves up and find an ok happy place but it never lasts for long, I've just had a relationship break up and it's the worse thing in the world and your left feeling like everyone would be better off without you, I suffer a lot with been over sensitive and thinking the worse in everything and it drives people I love away, which leaves me alone and feeling done with trying anymore.
I hope your ok and I too have just ordered SN, it's sad that life hasn't and doesn't turn out as we want, am 33 no kids and everything I wanted to achieved just seems impossible now...
I read a lot on here about people having illness and things and I feel selfish at times as I don't have any of that.. life just drains me and I can't talk to anyone about it who understands which just leaves u feeling so alone in this big world and it's a horrible feeling xx

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Thank you for understanding.
I am on meds and doing therapy. But I know the speech of the therapists by heart. It doesn't get better.
Ctb is the only thing that brings me hope these days. This forum is very helpful, I just realized that I can buy sn in my country - I thought was impossible. And I am starting to plan my way out

It's good that you did seek therapy, and I'm sorry it isn't helping. I hope things somehow get better for you.

 

[Deathbydemo]

Welcome to SS. I'm relatively new here myself, but find posting a good source of peace at the moment. I am sorry life has led you to here. I can relate when you say you're tired and just want to rest. That's all I want too. I hope you stick around so we can get to know you better. Hang in there.

 

[Deleted member 15256]

It's so sad that most people's story on here is relatable... life does get tiring and I know exactly how you feel, we build ourselves up and find an ok happy place but it never lasts for long, I've just had a relationship break up and it's the worse thing in the world and your left feeling like everyone would be better off without you, I suffer a lot with been over sensitive and thinking the worse in everything and it drives people I love away, which leaves me alone and feeling done with trying anymore.
I hope your ok and I too have just ordered SN, it's sad that life hasn't and doesn't turn out as we want, am 33 no kids and everything I wanted to achieved just seems impossible now...
I read a lot on here about people having illness and things and I feel selfish at times as I don't have any of that.. life just drains me and I can't talk to anyone about it who understands which just leaves u feeling so alone in this big world and it's a horrible feeling xx

I don't think you're selfish, and I relate so much with your experiences. The simple things, wake up, go out, interact to people became burdens so heavy to carry.
You can pm me if you want to. So we can talk more

Welcome to SS. I'm relatively new here myself, but find posting a good source of peace at the moment. I am sorry life has led you to here. I can relate when you say you're tired and just want to rest. That's all I want too. I hope you stick around so we can get to know you better. Hang in there.

Thank you. I need a little more time to set things straight, so I will be around for a while