tired...

[sweetgirl666]

I'm tired, my father thinks I'm a failure and he has a problem with throwing it in my face every day. It took me away from something that was good for me, which was my job. I have a twin sister who hates me as much as he does, I've been through sexual abuse, alcoholism and they always somehow throw it in my face as if it were my fault.
The only one who seems to understand me is my mother, another who my father mistreats with words too. I'm so lost, exhausted and sad, it hurts so much to live every day, I can't take it anymore, I tried CTB with medication but all I managed to do was make my muscles contract. I just wanted to take away this pain I don't want to live anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I also find it painful to suffer in this existence, to me existence really is too cruel, I hope you find peace, I understand feeling so tired.