Tired of feeling this way!

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I'm slowly destroying myself with my suicide obsession. I've been scaring myself lately. I wanna do it, I don't wanna do it. I'm scared that i almost succeeded 3 times this past week. I'm regretful that I didn't.

I wanna stop feeling this way, but unfortunately my "obsession" is so deep.

What the heck can I do?

 

[owo]

i think you should moving to direction of "i dont wanna do it"

i think your "obsession" is caused by something and first you should attempt to mitigate that (if you are not able to solve it)