Tips for suicide risk assessments during therapy session when you're a bad liar?

[testtraveller]

I have my final therapy session of the year, which I unfortunately can't avoid, coming up in a week and I'm so damn nervous about it. In my last session 3 weeks ago, I mentioned passive suicidal thoughts (when I hadn't decided on ctb) and this triggered a suicide risk assessment and I know for sure that the subject will be brought up again next week. In all honesty, I'm a horrible liar and in general an honest person and with my past history of a suicide attempt and many hospitalisations for depression, I know that if even I did straight out lie, my therapist very likely won't believe me.

At this point, I've chosen and purchased my method (SN, waiting for it to arrive), planned the location, time and date. So, if even part of this plan were to come out during the suicide risk assessment, I think my therapist will probably intervene. I do not want psychiatric help, especially not in the form of hospital/crisis care, and would like any tips to avoid triggering a crisis intervention. If she asks me straight out if I have a plan, method etc, what do I even say..? How can I evade/avoid the question without explicitly saying no because I know it won't come out right or be believable if I try to flat out say no. My therapist also knows about my previous bad experiences with hospitalisations and knows that I will not want to go back, so may think I'm lying to avoid it too. I just want to be in peace and wish I didn't even have to attend, but since I have to to avoid prompting any suspicion, if anyone has any tips for these assessments/questions that would be great.

How do I avoid being sent to hospital or a crisis intervention after being asked if I have a suicide plan/method during my therapy session? I'm a really terrible liar - please help - thank you!

 

[EmptyBottle]

Maybe partial truths? Since "no, I don't" is technically half-valid since the SN hasn't arrived (for method/plan question).
You could say you are feeling better (technically true, since plans can make one feel better vs be used for finalising existence).

Feel free to bring along some paper, a pen, and some notes about questions one can ask. That can show the therapist that u 'wish to improve' (even if the wish is either weak or non-existent at the time), and can make what's said more believable. Use them in session too, that way, one can not only remember more, but have something to show. Maybe the rhetorical question "if I intend to die, why would I take notes to improve?" would be worth a shot, spoken as if "die" meant "throw the notes out"?

 

[eternalpace]

Keep your answers concise… short, simple, and to the point. The lengthier your replies, the higher the chance of slipping up and saying something that you'll regret. Don't overthink the questions or your answers. You can tell someone that you're depressed or feeling down without going into suicidal ideations.