Time to go

[Rainork]

Today's the day, hopefully for real.
I've done more work around the house today, only thing left to do it put away a puzzle that I started months ago and will never finish.
I'm going to head to my destination in about an hour, haven't decided exacrly what I wanna do but after breaking down when saying goodbye to my cat, I know I can't be here when my other half gets home because he will see straight through whatever face I try to put on.
I can't even say what I'm feeling tbh, it's like there's an explosion that's gone off inside of me and now every emotion that's possible to be felt has been thrown around like a hurricane inside my head.
I've been switching fron laughing to crying, dancing to collapsing all day.
I am the poster girl of a mess right now.

 

[scary]

It's been said a bunch on here when it comes to goodbye threads but good luck Rain, I hope you find peace and that everything goes well for you. The site is still here to give support if something hypothetically happens, but I believe that you can do it

 

[apassingmoment]

i hope whatever you choose to do brings you peace. i truly believe that whatever comes after this life is free of torment. rest well, if it comes to it. <3

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sending love, whatever happens.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[Anthropos]

Good luck, I hope you find peace.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

Godspeed. If it doesn't happen, we're all here ready to welcome you back. We're just strangers but we'll always be part of your threads. Hugs and kisses.

 

[Chronical_Suicidal]

Uou, I've been looking to a puzzle that I'll probably never finish too. Anyway, whatever you decide, hope you don't regret.

 

[Warum]

maybe you can finish the puzzle first before you decide. i feel like you are not 100% ready yet from the way you structure your sentence. i wish you the best.

 

[yotaka]

May the ocean bring you peace

 

[Matchaaa]

good luck,I hope you can find peace and relief you are looking for.
whatever decision you make,I wishing you all the best.

 

[xterii]

wishing you eternal peace, good luck

 

[Rainork]

Thank you everyone I've still got a while before I go, so going to a local wine bar to have a few drinks and sort out my notes properly.
I will update later when I'm ready to take everything and go for my swim- still like 6 hours off (will be going at the turn of the tide) and I'm hoping to be quite drunk by then, if my messages are hard to read lol
(Edit- I'm now at the beach watching the sunset, would've been gutted if I'd forgotten to do this. It would be perfect but is unfortunately covered in streaky clouds thanks to the planes. Still pretty though)

 

[ovaltinee99]

Hugs

 

[geepeedee]

good luck.

 

[bakenohana]

best of luck i hope you find peace

 

[Rainork]

Awkwardly ended up in a theatre bar as they were closing so downed my glass of wine and left- now in a nice wine bar to have some food and more wine.
I suppose I'm just waiting for time to pass now.
I am certain I want to leave the earth, the pain I feel each day outweighs any good I can see in my future. The only thing I feel bad for is those who care for me I'll be leaving behind.
I think low tide is at like 2am? So still at least 5 hours until I can take my OD and finally find peace.
I know most people fast before OD'ing- but I think some food this long beforehand will be okay (I don't need to pills to kill me, only to allow me to drown so should be okay).
Either way, I'm feeling good right now. A little awkward being the only person sat alone in this building but that's okay.