I certainly see existence as being a form of torture, life is such an useless and terrible concept and of course enduring this existence could never be worth it in any way. Existing leads to nothing and nowhere apart from our inevitable deterioration and death, so at least to me it makes sense to leave as soon as possible to avoid future torment and all of the risks involved in existing, but of course it's just not straightforward to do so.
The thought of ageing disturbs me and such a thing could never be beneficial in any way, in fact it's something that just causes harm, I absolutely despise life itself and I view existence as being something to be avoided. But anyway all that life is, is just passing the time until we die, we are just delaying the inevitable so I really do hate the fact that this society tries to do everything to make suicide as difficult as possible for us, it's just so cruel how we are denied peaceful ways to exit so we can free ourselves from a future where we will inevitably suffer more all for the sake of it.