Venting Thoughts

[BitterlyAlive]

I wonder if my irrational guilt and extreme fixation on finances/homelessness is a really bad thing. Dangerous. Everything feels like it's my fault, as I talked about in my guilt/COVID thread. Oftentimes the guilt just makes no sense because it's so extreme, it's borderline delusional and involves serious mental gymnastics. I'm talking about everyday things. And despite doing alright financially, I am obsessed with becoming bankrupt and homeless. I can afford to pay for things like bills, gas, food, but my mind is screaming at me that I literally cannot afford anything and that I'll...get in trouble or something. I feel like both situations are looming over me, I've been worried like this since before COVID.

Tbh it's probably just my anxiety

 

[woxihuanni]

Living hand to mouth is not OK, that's why. We need to own our home and be completely confident with regards to future income to feel safe. Our ancestirs with a cave and a spear were richer than us.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Our ancestors with a cave and a spear were richer than us.

Very well said, whether you meant literally or figuratively or both.

 

[XYZ]

Our ancestirs with a cave and a spear were richer than us.

They were rich as kings. Just think of all the furs coats that hung in their cave closets

 

[woxihuanni]

They were rich as kings. Just think of all the furs coats that hung in their cave closets

The finest and fairest!

But don't I envy the women! The man would never have time for mindfuckery, it'd be so peaceful at home.