Tragic. Upsetting, obviously. I just think everyone goes through that pain inevitably though, death us a part if life, as is suffering. I just talk about openly so they have fewer regret, they tried to help me, best they could. We gave it a good shot.
In think my dad has actually accepted my death. My gf is compassionate and underdtanding but it will hurt her very much, my greatest regret.
I have trouble talking to my brother, but I hope I give him at least another chance at helping too.
If they dont understand, then In think they don't see that give just changed. It's just like I'm older inside and its my time.
The guilt exists they can't fix me. I dont want them suffering with my existence.
Besides, you know, it's my life, I think its unfair that the conversation is one-way.
I've been depressed on and off for 20 years so all gas been discussed tbh. And now I'm getting secondary health issues that are beginning to affect my ability to do anything I used to enjoy, or much of anything at all, because the stress. When suicidal feelings come and go, thats no reason to dismiss one half from the get-go and label it irrational depression.
I feel for all the sitiation is where life is just too complicated, without any easy way through