Thoughts on leaving people you care about?

[toseeyousmile]

The thought of killing my mom came into my mind. Ever since she got her stroke it's more clear than ever that our mother and son bond is irreplaceable, once I live nobody can take or come anywhere close to replacing my place. We really do care about each other, which is why once I ctb, idk if it's possible for her to recover, so maybe taking her with me is the most merciful thing since idk if she can go on and if she can, if the anguish I'll be leaving her with is bearable. Both sides of the argument in my head here are fucked, I'm so far gone idk what to do, I don't think there's really any practical solution anybody can offer unless it's for me to live so asking for advice in this matter isn't really a worthwhile idea, unlucky. The saving grace is maybe my sister or maybe some others can help her get through it but I'm really doubtful her mental would recover from me ctbing.

Living with her now, if she truly knew how I thought, like about life and stuff, about having no real ideals for the future and just doomer values on everything in general, she'd be pretty stressed thinking and worrying about me and if I would already feel guilty if she knew about things when I was alive, her mental would definitely break if she knew how I thought once I ctb, there's no solving this problem unless I adjust and become like, and actual decent person but yeah no not happening.

 

[UnravelingWinter]

I'd never kill anyone other than myself. I don't want to hurt anyone in my life, but there's nothing else I can do.

 

[greencondo]

You are talking about murder. Do not murder your mother.

 

[Kurinoy]

You can choose what to do with your own life but don't you dare to harm others.

 

[Foresight]

I don't judge you for these thoughts but leave them behind. Our heads can get dark and desperate under the worst conditions. Your mom has her right to do what she chooses with her situation. Leave her alone and drop the notion of making any decisions for her.

 

[PlushieLover]

You shouldn't decide the fate of a life that is not yours. I kind of understand your idea, you want to avoid causing suffering, but I think that is not your decision to judge who lives or not.

 

[unimaginativelamp]

It's clear that you care deeply about your mother, and I don't judge you for these thoughts--but you shouldn't end your mother's life. She has the right to live, and we do not have the right to cause physical harm to another person, no matter our logic or justification.

 

[toseeyousmile]

yeah you guys are right, I thought about it anyways and yeah I just dont have the heart to do that, but I also don't have the heart to just leaver her alone knowing what it will do to her. These thoughts were really just out of desperation.

 

[summers]

@toseeyousmile I would suggest you ask to have this who thread deleted. This is exactly what ft26, nyt, prolifers, and pbs are looking for to demonize ss.

Not saying I disagree with you. If I had a stroke and couldn't kill myself, I wish someone would care enough to end me.

 

[Chinaski]

@toseeyousmile I would suggest you ask to have this who thread deleted. This is exactly what ft26, nyt, prolifers, and pbs are looking for to demonize ss.

Not saying I disagree with you. If I had a stroke and couldn't kill myself, I wish someone would care enough to end me.

If things should be deleted on this basis then there are worse things on here than this thread imo and it's not good to be seeking to silence serious around discussion and it's impact/implications for these reasons when so much potentially harmful, non-suicide related bullshit content exists on this site.

 

[Istanbulite]

Why would u murder ur mom tho

 

[Chinaski]

Why would u murder ur mom tho

Tbf l think the advancement of any argument for suicide/euthanasia will be from those who have seen relatives suffering and thought about intervening, it's not an unserious subject imo. I've seen someone recently, albeit from a distance, become a total vegetable from MND and his devoted wife who was herself ailing was feeling similarly inclined. I wouldn't necessarily put the argument the way the op has ("if l ctb nobody will take care of them" etc) but l don't think it's as weird as some other stuff on here, l think many suicidal people have delayed their own ctb because of a responsibility to an elderly or infirm loved one who we need to see die first.

 

[summers]

Why would u murder ur mom tho

Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do...

Teenager 'decapitated his mother and left home brandishing her head'

18-year-old calls 911 confessing to murder before police arrive to gruesome scene

www.independent.co.uk

Son beheads his mother then kicked her severed head across the road

Bystanders said they thought it was a halloween 'hoax'

metro.co.uk