Thoughts on CBT near your birthday, does it really matter?

[Smashingairwaves]

I've been wanting to commit suicide for years now, and have been seriously contemplating it for a year now, since I found this site. Due to failed attempts and a bunch of other things popping up in my life (illness and surgeries), i obviously haven't gone through with it. I wish I didn't leave it for so long and I really want to go before my birthday(my 21st is on tuesday) hopefully on Thursday. It just seems so weird to do it so close to my birthday for some reason, I have no idea why though. Anyone else doing it or avoiding doing it near their birthday for whatever reason?
I guess it really doesn't matter, but something about it feels strange

 

[WhiteDespair]

We all have associations to specific dates and times which makes things easier or harder.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I guess it really doesn't matter, but something about it feels strange

You hit the nail on the head. It really doesn't matter all that much.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

You hit the nail on the head. It really doesn't matter all that much.

I guess I'm overthinking it lol

 

[CrushedHopes]

I guess I'm overthinking it lol

I think you are. Don't think about it too much and just focus on setting yourself free from the mortal realm.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Honestly, my first choice was to CTB on my birthday but I had forgotten my dad's birthday is two days before mine.. Unfortunately. I could never do that. :(

 

[mediocre]

Personally I don't think it matters. Your closest loved ones will always remember the date every year afterward whether its on your birthday or not. My birthday is December and I think this is the perfect time to die if I have the courage to do it, and the perfect age, 27.

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

My last attempt was on my birthday. I dont know if i will survive that long, but that is my plan again this year. If i cant make it i will CTB when ever, as long as it isnt super close to my daughters birthday mid December.

When i get angry, sometimes i think about doing it on my ex-wifes birthday, but that was a few days ago :(

 

[Return2Dust]

I wanted to do it on my Birthday to have the same birth and ctb date. I backed out and I'm pissed at myself. Did the 48 hr regimen, fasted 8 hours, took 3 meto an hour before, then backed out. I should of ignored all the HBD messages on my phone. FML.