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fallen.dove

fallen.dove

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Jan 24, 2026
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hi uh as you can see im new here. ive been wanting to ctb for 8 years. all of my many attempts failed uh..i am thinking about buying a gun or sth since my only way to do it for now is by hanging (partially ig) but my si…its just making it impossible to go thru it.
i live in poland and i saw that its actually possible to get access to it without a license but idk where to look for it because id rather order it than go to buy it in person. can u guys tell me where to order one without trouble? it would be nice if it is possible to order it to the parcel locker because im screwed if my mom sees this. same as finding it in my room etc.. i just want to die in peace without having to deal with si or think about the side effects if i survive. just pull the trigger and im gone. you can tell me how should i aim (angle and stuff) so its gonna work. i think its the best option for me…

sorry if i misspelled sth, english is my second language and im literally anxious and shaking while writing this..
thanks in advance<3
 
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WereHere...

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Jan 26, 2026
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hi uh as you can see im new here. ive been wanting to ctb for 8 years. all of my many attempts failed uh..i am thinking about buying a gun or sth since my only way to do it for now is by hanging (partially ig) but my si…its just making it impossible to go thru it.
i live in poland and i saw that its actually possible to get access to it without a license but idk where to look for it because id rather order it than go to buy it in person. can u guys tell me where to order one without trouble? it would be nice if it is possible to order it to the parcel locker because im screwed if my mom sees this. same as finding it in my room etc.. i just want to die in peace without having to deal with si or think about the side effects if i survive. just pull the trigger and im gone. you can tell me how should i aim (angle and stuff) so its gonna work. i think its the best option for me…

sorry if i misspelled sth, english is my second language and im literally anxious and shaking while writing this..
thanks in advance<3
Wow i wanna know too aswell....i always dreamed of a firearm since its the perfect way to ctb in my eyes...im moving soon but im polish and i am in pl right now aswell... i wish i could answer your question but i dont know either. I thought about using likes gases and stuff but that sounds super scary and hard to get. And a knife is not guranteed + SI will stop you.
Sorry i couldnt be of help :(
 
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fallen.dove

fallen.dove

hopeless
Jan 24, 2026
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Wow i wanna know too aswell....i always dreamed of a firearm since its the perfect way to ctb in my eyes...im moving soon but im polish and i am in pl right now aswell... i wish i could answer your question but i dont know either. I thought about using likes gases and stuff but that sounds super scary and hard to get. And a knife is not guranteed + SI will stop you.
Sorry i couldnt be of help :(
dw, if someone replies ur gonna have an answer aswell:)

yeah gas is scary as fuck and a knife? oh hell nah i would def freak out
 
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Jan 12, 2026
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I really, really feel you, firearm is actually the best method... simple, fast, painless and high succes rate.

I wish firearms were legal in my country too. for the same reason. There are no really good other methods. Im in the same boat as you.
 
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Jan 26, 2026
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dw, if someone replies ur gonna have an answer aswell:)

yeah gas is scary as fuck and a knife? oh hell nah i would def freak out
Its not that knives freak me out infact i kinda like it.... i use to cut super deep into my thighs past fat layer but i had to stop because my mom caught me and shamed me for it and i also got infections and required stitches......but im scared if it fails you have a high chance of developing anemia sort of ilnesses because of blood loss and also your hand or limb you cut might become disabled forever....so im mainly scared of the failure rate.....i mean if you get drunk and really get into the right mindset you can just close your eyes and slice fast and hard (thats what i did when i was cutting) so yeah its mainly the risks and consequences of failure.
 
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fallen.dove

fallen.dove

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Jan 24, 2026
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I really, really feel you, firearm is actually the best method... simple, fast, painless and high succes rate.

I wish firearms were legal in my country too. for the same reason. There are no really good other methods. Im in the same boat as you.
im so sorry:( i think u might just order one if possible.. thanks for your response:)
i hope u find peace youre looking for<3
Its not that knives freak me out infact i kinda like it.... i use to cut super deep into my thighs past fat layer but i had to stop because my mom caught me and shamed me for it and i also got infections and required stitches......but im scared if it fails you have a high chance of developing anemia sort of ilnesses because of blood loss and also your hand or limb you cut might become disabled forever....so im mainly scared of the failure rate.....i mean if you get drunk and really get into the right mindset you can just close your eyes and slice fast and hard (thats what i did when i was cutting) so yeah its mainly the risks and consequences of failure.
oh. i used to cut myself too but it was not very deep since i was 12 when i started sh-ing and had no access to alc. i literally started drinking when i was like 16 or 17 but uh im drinking occasionally since my father was an alcoholic before he died and it scared me away. and yeah the thought of consequences of failure would make me freak out aswell.
 
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Aug 21, 2023
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I'm also Polish and would like to find a reliable source for firearms. Theoretically, I could search the internet, but firstly, I don't have the energy for it, and secondly, I don't want to expose myself to additional problems if I stumble upon a scam.
A gun would be nice because it gives me freedom.

Unfortunately, I'll probably have to abandon that plan. I advise you to be careful too, and don't necessarily trust people here. There are all sorts of people here: the police, scammers, etc. I'm not saying you shouldn't trust anyone, but you should be careful.

The community is relatively large, so that means some people might try to take advantage of ordinary people.
 
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fallen.dove

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I'm also Polish and would like to find a reliable source for firearms. Theoretically, I could search the internet, but firstly, I don't have the energy for it, and secondly, I don't want to expose myself to additional problems if I stumble upon a scam.
A gun would be nice because it gives me freedom.

Unfortunately, I'll probably have to abandon that plan. I advise you to be careful too, and don't necessarily trust people here. There are all sorts of people here: the police, scammers, etc. I'm not saying you shouldn't trust anyone, but you should be careful.

The community is relatively large, so that means some people might try to take advantage of ordinary people.
yeah i feel u. im gonna be careful so dw. if someone replies with a way to obtain the gun im ofc gonna do research if its safe to order from there:>
thanks for caring<3 that means a lot for me
 
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