dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
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Some of what I'm going to mention are things I carried with me in my last CTB attempt, where I felt certain I would succeed. (& It was almost successful.)
I'll admit- my perception has changed a bit now that my method has. SN is much more documented & as a highly successful method (when done correctly) as well compared to the last method I used, which was a form of gas.
Thoughts:
The dying process could be any number of experiences & I won't be naive to that. It could be like a dream or maybe just like going to sleep. Or it could be like blacking out, much like the time I did as a child after accidental excessive inhalation of helium (not going to lie- I liked the sensation of nothingness when it happened.) It could feel better than any drug in the universe. & If it's scary or painful or both: I accept & understand if that's what's in the cards for me.
Everything is temporary- dying & death are truly inevitable moments in the end, like all others.
Try not to go out with a heavy heart- it's unnecessary stress when my decision has already been made. I am going to attempt to release endorphins & dopamine right before I drink the glass.
Try to allow myself to give in- to not fight. To just let go. To embrace.
Hope this is helpful to someone else. Feel free to add your own thoughts.
I'll admit- my perception has changed a bit now that my method has. SN is much more documented & as a highly successful method (when done correctly) as well compared to the last method I used, which was a form of gas.
Thoughts:
The dying process could be any number of experiences & I won't be naive to that. It could be like a dream or maybe just like going to sleep. Or it could be like blacking out, much like the time I did as a child after accidental excessive inhalation of helium (not going to lie- I liked the sensation of nothingness when it happened.) It could feel better than any drug in the universe. & If it's scary or painful or both: I accept & understand if that's what's in the cards for me.
Everything is temporary- dying & death are truly inevitable moments in the end, like all others.
Try not to go out with a heavy heart- it's unnecessary stress when my decision has already been made. I am going to attempt to release endorphins & dopamine right before I drink the glass.
Try to allow myself to give in- to not fight. To just let go. To embrace.
Hope this is helpful to someone else. Feel free to add your own thoughts.
