Thoughts are really strong at the moment. Might go to the cliff tommorow

[SHThrowAway213]

Living back with my parents. Getting divorced. Going back to work next week.
I'm an alcoholic but my parents know this and won't let me drink.
The fact I'm living without drinking is really starting to get me down and stress me out.
It's only been about 2 weeks without alcohol, and it sucks big time.
It's my coping method.
And without my coping method, my suicidal thoughts have been creeping back and getting stronger and stronger by the day.
The urge to drink and the urge to kill myself are really strong at the moment.
Been stronger since I found out I'm returning to work next week.
Extremely tempting to go to the cliff.
I just want to die.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

I shouldn't say this 'cause I'm a drunk myself but drink on the sly? I know how depression gets on me sober. Currently trying to find a balance...

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I shouldn't say this 'cause I'm a drunk myself but drink on the sly? I know how depression gets on me sober. Currently trying to find a balance...

I'm not sure if I want to risk it. My Nan is also an alcoholic so they know what they are looking for.