LonelyPrince
Rotten to the Core
- Dec 12, 2025
- 94
I often joke around about killing myself.
A bike almost fucking ran me over the last time I was out with my friend and I said: if you gonna ran me over at least finish the job.
My friend was chuckling but then said "no, don't leave me! you've already left me in uni don't leave me in life too"
I kinda paused.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't met her so I could just commit to suicide.
If I were to kill myself I would traumatized her.
I think she suspects that I'm suicidal. She already knows I'm depressed due to me mentioning it.
These are thoughts I can't tell anyone obviously. You can't talk about suicide with the people you know.
She is my only light at this point. I don't even know how she willingly hangs out with someone like me.
Her perception of me is completely different to my perception of myself obviously...but still.
I love her so much it hurts.
My thoughts just keep switching between suicide and her
I want her
I need her
But I also need peace and relief
A bike almost fucking ran me over the last time I was out with my friend and I said: if you gonna ran me over at least finish the job.
My friend was chuckling but then said "no, don't leave me! you've already left me in uni don't leave me in life too"
I kinda paused.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't met her so I could just commit to suicide.
If I were to kill myself I would traumatized her.
I think she suspects that I'm suicidal. She already knows I'm depressed due to me mentioning it.
These are thoughts I can't tell anyone obviously. You can't talk about suicide with the people you know.
She is my only light at this point. I don't even know how she willingly hangs out with someone like me.
Her perception of me is completely different to my perception of myself obviously...but still.
I love her so much it hurts.
My thoughts just keep switching between suicide and her
I want her
I need her
But I also need peace and relief
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