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idelttoilfsadness21

idelttoilfsadness21

自由不迷失수直到死亡
Jan 6, 2025
595
Share your stories and what you're doing to get through the hardships. Supporting you from the distance as we all struggle to survive and get through tough times. <3
 
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yxmux

yxmux

¥~¥
Apr 16, 2024
107
By pathologically not giving a shit.
 
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WhiteRaven

Member
Jan 7, 2025
8
spite!
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
761
I'm going to kill myself. It's not a good answer to this question but it's my only answer.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
666
I haven't really suffered much from my sexuality at all (for simplicity sakes I am bisexual.) This is mostly I only express with people I know are going to accept me. Maybe I might suffer more if I got in a relationship with another women or of similar gender and expressed that more openly in public leading to discrimination but otherwise I don't see how my sexuality would negatively effect me.

With me being trans I haven't suffered as much compared to most trans people here as my gender dysphoria is mostly gone and isn't a big issue now. I thankful got private hrt and had a more natural feminine body compared to most boys so I have been able to "pass as cisgender" most of the time. The main issue with being trans for me now is discrimination and transphobia expressed in media but I just avoid that to save me the pain from it and I can't do much about it. I find it better to stay ignorant to it.
 
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radiohead

radiohead

indistinct
Feb 1, 2023
24
i don't really go outside. doesn't work, i feel worse than i would long-term i think. wrote a lot here but it was all garbage so basically i don't know anybody like me around here and i am now too scared of talking to people to find them. don't think anybody knows i exist anymore

uhhh the 'how cope' part is type on my computer gadget and watch my little films & stay off twitter
(im transgenders ((and nobinary :D
 
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render

render

how to say goodbye and mean it
Sep 3, 2024
69
alcohol
 
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mortalityisbadass

mortalityisbadass

Two setbacks away from my worst self
Nov 18, 2023
35
I focus on keeping my queer friends happy and alive. If it costs me my life I'll save my friends, and I'm pretty okay with that.
 
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iamalreadydead

iamalreadydead

Student
Nov 25, 2022
143
I focus on keeping my queer friends happy and alive. If it costs me my life I'll save my friends, and I'm pretty okay with that.
^ this completely.

i am often suicidal but as i exist now i think i would lay down my life for my and my friends autonomy. there is nothing in this world more important to me than this.
 
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Warkman1

Warkman1

Member
Jan 10, 2025
87
My stepson is trans, I couldn't be more proud of his conviction to be who he truly is. We have have supported him through every step of his journey to date and i feel privileged to be a part of it and to be there for him. If I had an ounce of his strength I'd be a far better man than i am.
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Experienced
Sep 7, 2024
298
I can't stay here, I'm going to die.
There's a reason that I wore my rainbow shirt when I attempted. And I'll wear it again when I'm successful. My sexual orientation is not the primary reason I'm ending my life but it's a heavy contributor. Lots of religious trauma and unsupportive family who thinks I'm headed to hell.

Anna
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

Arcanist
Jul 25, 2024
461
by having nasty gay sex
 
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whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

*bleat*
Aug 5, 2024
76
this one's a little weird but i'll do my best to explain.

for sexual orientation, i'm aromantic and asexual (aroace). this basically means i experience 0 sexual or romantic attraction to real people. this is also a spectrum; where some might experience attraction to only fictional characters (i'm in this category), some might not at all. this is fairly easy to cope with; you're not going to make any connections of the romantic/sexual variety, nor will you want to. the only real annoyance is other people, who might think you "haven't met the right person," are broken and in need of fixing, or, worst case scenario, they develop a crush on you. i once had 3 people crushing on me at once and... yeah.

i am also transgender (ftm). i've known this since i was a tween. i have not medically transitioned, nor even socially transitioned. absolutely zero steps taken to transition... which sucks, where dysphoria is concerned. since i've known i was trans, i do my best to completely dissociate myself from my body; don't look at it, don't pay it too much mind in the shower (i just go in there, get clean, and daydream throughout all of it), wear baggy or men's clothes, keep myself busy, etc.. i don't like to sit with my feelings, ever, and i especially don't like to sit with those of the dysphoric variety, so i just... don't. since i've been doing this for years, i know there might one day be a point where i can't ignore it, but right now, it doesn't ruin my mood. it does irk me when people address me as a woman, and expect me to do things associated with womanhood, but at the end of the day, i do not pass as male, i likely will not pass as male for a very long time, so that annoyance is not directed at them; just the fact that i cannot transition and the consequences of that.
 
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stars-go-out

stars-go-out

In the dark times, should the stars also go out
Jan 9, 2025
3
With hope, bravery and in the memory of those who died to get us where we are. Every single person who has suffered or died to progress queer rights. Because they hoped for a safe future for us and I want to uphold their legacy, and make the world a better place for us going forward
 
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