This whole pandemic came at the worst time..

[Livingvsdying25]

I was jus tryna live my "best" life until i can get the supplies stanbility and clear enough state of mind to CTB. I am in no ways interested in living long or recovery anymore. CTB is all i want no matter how long it takes.

With that ebing said i had stuff planned to do as i had just moved and feeling more at peace/able.

All of its not cancelled and its fucking with me finacially. I dunno how ima fogure that out. Im bored too. I dont wanan engage too much in mental dissociation bc it makes the focring to live very hard buttttttt now its like??? Nothing to do....

So frustated tbh. The lack of money as always just makes it worse. Urghhh. Try to figure it all out tho.

Ps. Excuse my shitty grammer ❤✌

 

[faust]

Hey, I don't have money even for CTB.
Though it is time to make preparations.
This corona bus is moving very fast and now there are problems with job applications, money, etc.
And we will somehow have to deal with it...

 

[Nem]

I regret not killing myself already, certain life situations postponed it and things have only gotten much worse and this virus has not helped one bit

peace/hugs

 

[Death.]

What a utterly cruel twist of fate. I had every intention of giving life one last final push and this calamity unfolds. I just don't know anymore man...

 

[TAW122]

I'm in similar boats as well. I don't have direct access to my method due to my personal and life circumstances. Therefore, I would have to wait until this coronavirus bullshit is done before I can proceed. Then I also need to wait until the opportunity arises (moving out temporarily and/or parents are gone and I have the house to myself for some extended time, preferably a week or longer (to get everything together), but that is not looking likely at this time.).