LonelyStarrySky
they/them, menhera
- Oct 27, 2023
- 78
We all walk the same path alone
-idk
It just feels like life is just giving you things to take them away. Why doesn't anyone accept my love? The path in my life is feeling so lonely and dark without a person to hang onto. There is a huge hole in my heart without anyone to love. But when I do love somebody I obsess over them and become unhealthy and extremely attached to them without being able to control it. It just feels like a curse to have this longing which I try to fulfill and when I find the person who can fulfill it.... my heart gets shattered into dust and it hurts and never stops hurting.
I hate being alone, I just can't handle being alone, I spend all the possible time I can socialising with people when I get the chance in search of that person who won't ever leave me.
At the end of the day I just feel cursed, why do I exist in this world having attachments to people/things only to have them be taken away. I remember some youtube videos I liked have been taken away or songs removed, it made me really sad, thats why now I download/screenshot everything I am attached to and back it up so I don't lose it anymore because it feels truly heartbreaking when I lose something. And some things I felt attached to now I can look only with sorrow because it reminds me of the people that I shared it with and now I feel hurt because it reminds me of them.
I have heard advice saying so many times to stop forming attachments to things, but its like they have never been alive, to truly understand how I feel. I can't understand it, they can try to tell me everything they can all the advice they can, but I don't think they understand. They are just trying to take away what little I have left to love in this world. Because those attachments are the only thing keeping me alive in this world.
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
- Bad Apple
If I try to not form attachments in this world so I stop feeling hurt by this loss, I won't feel alive anymore, I would feel as a non-person(and I already do feel like a non person to some degree), detached from the world around me, walking around seeing people in places around me having fun, and pretend I am not deeply jealous of the life they have. I would be just a spectator to this existence observing the world from a distance but never getting to close to experience those things myself because if I do that I would get too attached to them and nobody would understand why. I may as well be a dead ghost at that point if that is what my relationship to this world and people inside of it is, I may just as well end it all.
-idk
It just feels like life is just giving you things to take them away. Why doesn't anyone accept my love? The path in my life is feeling so lonely and dark without a person to hang onto. There is a huge hole in my heart without anyone to love. But when I do love somebody I obsess over them and become unhealthy and extremely attached to them without being able to control it. It just feels like a curse to have this longing which I try to fulfill and when I find the person who can fulfill it.... my heart gets shattered into dust and it hurts and never stops hurting.
I hate being alone, I just can't handle being alone, I spend all the possible time I can socialising with people when I get the chance in search of that person who won't ever leave me.
At the end of the day I just feel cursed, why do I exist in this world having attachments to people/things only to have them be taken away. I remember some youtube videos I liked have been taken away or songs removed, it made me really sad, thats why now I download/screenshot everything I am attached to and back it up so I don't lose it anymore because it feels truly heartbreaking when I lose something. And some things I felt attached to now I can look only with sorrow because it reminds me of the people that I shared it with and now I feel hurt because it reminds me of them.
I have heard advice saying so many times to stop forming attachments to things, but its like they have never been alive, to truly understand how I feel. I can't understand it, they can try to tell me everything they can all the advice they can, but I don't think they understand. They are just trying to take away what little I have left to love in this world. Because those attachments are the only thing keeping me alive in this world.
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
- Bad Apple
If I try to not form attachments in this world so I stop feeling hurt by this loss, I won't feel alive anymore, I would feel as a non-person(and I already do feel like a non person to some degree), detached from the world around me, walking around seeing people in places around me having fun, and pretend I am not deeply jealous of the life they have. I would be just a spectator to this existence observing the world from a distance but never getting to close to experience those things myself because if I do that I would get too attached to them and nobody would understand why. I may as well be a dead ghost at that point if that is what my relationship to this world and people inside of it is, I may just as well end it all.
