WearyWanderer
Student
- Nov 3, 2019
- 127
Please, please, can someone help me in person with applying to Pegasos.
I have a family member who said they will go with but they're not helping me with the paperwork or other logistics
This was time sensitive and I accidentally took a neurotoxic antibiotic that numbed my entire body which has officially made it humanly physically impossible to survive.
My entire pelvis and spinal area is malformed beyond comprehension. This anatomy shouldn't even be possible, this can't be reality because it's not fucking physically possible to function anymore
I have intractable musculoskeletal pain from the deformity and was moving cm by cm. Now that I'm numb, I lost all control for managing the pain and the unlivable full body contracture got retriggered. This contracture is caused by how inhumanly deformed my anatomy is fused together.
If I'm numb for too long, the musculoskeletal pain gets worse and worse and there's truly no way to reverse it because my body is too asymmetrical.
I am in a state of terror and this is not a choice anymore. I *need* to die. My pelvis wraps around my body like an X and is two different shapes on both sides. The part where it converges blocks my rectum.
I am in unendurable, unbearable agony.
Spina Bifida is called the snowflake disease because no two versions are the exact same. My version is the absolute worst fucking one because my pelvis didn't form in a normal formation.
It's difficult to even sleep or breathe, let alone push past a sealed twisted fused malformity that's contracting in order to urinate or defecate.
I can't do long term catheters per ostomy because of how oddly angled the malformed clumps on each side of my pelvis are so it's not a solution for me. There's no surgery to unwedge a wedge or untwist a twist. There's no pain medicine that can cure or help pains caused by severe deformity.
Please. Can someone help me
I have a family member who said they will go with but they're not helping me with the paperwork or other logistics
This was time sensitive and I accidentally took a neurotoxic antibiotic that numbed my entire body which has officially made it humanly physically impossible to survive.
My entire pelvis and spinal area is malformed beyond comprehension. This anatomy shouldn't even be possible, this can't be reality because it's not fucking physically possible to function anymore
I have intractable musculoskeletal pain from the deformity and was moving cm by cm. Now that I'm numb, I lost all control for managing the pain and the unlivable full body contracture got retriggered. This contracture is caused by how inhumanly deformed my anatomy is fused together.
If I'm numb for too long, the musculoskeletal pain gets worse and worse and there's truly no way to reverse it because my body is too asymmetrical.
I am in a state of terror and this is not a choice anymore. I *need* to die. My pelvis wraps around my body like an X and is two different shapes on both sides. The part where it converges blocks my rectum.
I am in unendurable, unbearable agony.
Spina Bifida is called the snowflake disease because no two versions are the exact same. My version is the absolute worst fucking one because my pelvis didn't form in a normal formation.
It's difficult to even sleep or breathe, let alone push past a sealed twisted fused malformity that's contracting in order to urinate or defecate.
I can't do long term catheters per ostomy because of how oddly angled the malformed clumps on each side of my pelvis are so it's not a solution for me. There's no surgery to unwedge a wedge or untwist a twist. There's no pain medicine that can cure or help pains caused by severe deformity.
Please. Can someone help me
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