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I know that feeling. Had it once. It does feel good, but I would be careful if I was you right now. When I was in that state I cared for nothing. I was still in highschool, I had high grades but ignored everything for weeks. I stopped doing good. I stopped eating well or playing my fav games. I thought that everything must end and that I actually have to go through with it. I ended up going through with it but not fully thats why Im still here. Idk if you know what Im saying but basically take everything you do with a grain of salt. Theres no magical force that will melt you down if you end up backing out. Think things through more carefully and in a relaxed state not an anxious one like I did. The moment that I decided I wanted to end it was when I was most anxious and uncomfortable and I was in school. The place that I hated most.
Through May to July, my birthday is in July tho so I gotta watch out, it'll be a bit of a whammy if I kill myself just before or after my birthday. It depends. It honestly might happen around the end of May depending on how something goes.
The thing is that the primary symptom(?) of my issues, as diagnosed, is pathological anxiety. I have been calm at times, especially whilst I was still planning (that brought a *lot* of relief and calm) but I feel like it's unavoidable that I'm going to be naturally anxious as it comes closer. The anxiety also stems from the fact that I don't know whether my source'll be busted by UK authorities soon, and I'll receive a welfare check (or worse), and then I *won't* be able to carry it out at all, at least not for a really long time.
