AvenWav
I kinda wanna ctb eating apples
- Feb 13, 2023
- 20
(It is in the question format because this is not a definitive plan, if you have any suggestions feel free to answer)
My idea to ctb is pretty straight forward, might be a bit scary and painful but I am willing to go thru it:
I am going to hang myself and end it all. The specifics of my plan are these:
-1 I will find a rope that is long at least 2 to 3 meters (around 6.5 foot), the material of the rope is pretty important and I am still thinking about it, the diameter should be around 8mm (0,3 inches) and with the rope I should be fine, I chose a longer one just because the spot that I fount is better with a longer one.
-2 I will commit at around 2-3 AM, I am also going to take a day off just to do some practice/adjustments, I am doing it so late just so that I have a long period of time after my commitment where no one will probably pass around or check on me.
-3 Leave a USB Driver with a recording of my last words to my family, it is the only way that I can leave a legacy and maybe try to apology after this terrible thing that I am going to do to them.
If everything will be executed perfectly I will be unconscious after about some seconds from my commitment. Hopefully the pain will last just like the seconds of my still conscious state, in that moments I will be probably be taken by the adrenaline, in that case I prepared an handcuff made of a belt that will probably prevent me to SI in the middle of my conscious state.
Also this is the place where I will be ctb
Basically I will hang the rope to the stairs that seems to be good enough to handle my 60kg body, it seems to me that I do not have much space to move so it should be better since I can not really do much when I am hanged.
Share your thoughts if you want, it would be pretty helpful!
My idea to ctb is pretty straight forward, might be a bit scary and painful but I am willing to go thru it:
I am going to hang myself and end it all. The specifics of my plan are these:
-1 I will find a rope that is long at least 2 to 3 meters (around 6.5 foot), the material of the rope is pretty important and I am still thinking about it, the diameter should be around 8mm (0,3 inches) and with the rope I should be fine, I chose a longer one just because the spot that I fount is better with a longer one.
-2 I will commit at around 2-3 AM, I am also going to take a day off just to do some practice/adjustments, I am doing it so late just so that I have a long period of time after my commitment where no one will probably pass around or check on me.
-3 Leave a USB Driver with a recording of my last words to my family, it is the only way that I can leave a legacy and maybe try to apology after this terrible thing that I am going to do to them.
If everything will be executed perfectly I will be unconscious after about some seconds from my commitment. Hopefully the pain will last just like the seconds of my still conscious state, in that moments I will be probably be taken by the adrenaline, in that case I prepared an handcuff made of a belt that will probably prevent me to SI in the middle of my conscious state.
Also this is the place where I will be ctb
Basically I will hang the rope to the stairs that seems to be good enough to handle my 60kg body, it seems to me that I do not have much space to move so it should be better since I can not really do much when I am hanged.
Share your thoughts if you want, it would be pretty helpful!