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bessops1976
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- Feb 1, 2023
- 60
Today I am taking my life by carbon monoxide. I was orginiallly going to seal my bathroom, then I considered using my car, but today I decided to use a tent which I purchased earlier. Just doing a few last minute chores (not that they matter now) then I'll be lighting the charcoal and waiting for the flames to settle then transfer to the tent.
I want to take a bath first, strange but it feels important to freshen up then I guess I'm ready to depart this life. My working day doesn't officially end until 4.30pm, it's 3.45 as I write this but I've worked from home today giving me the flexibility to make my preparations.
My only sadness is leaving my cat, she's registered with a charity who take cats after their owners pass. She's 14 years old, I hope someone will adopt her.
I have written a delayed email, I won't be missed until I don't show for work on Monday and that feels too long. I have delayed it until tomorrow lunch time. By then I should have passed.
I spent a lot of time on here lately reading others posts and making a few myself. It feels strange to know it's me making my farewell post to a bunch of strangers.
So this is my goodbye, to people I don't even know in a forum that barely knew me!
I want to take a bath first, strange but it feels important to freshen up then I guess I'm ready to depart this life. My working day doesn't officially end until 4.30pm, it's 3.45 as I write this but I've worked from home today giving me the flexibility to make my preparations.
My only sadness is leaving my cat, she's registered with a charity who take cats after their owners pass. She's 14 years old, I hope someone will adopt her.
I have written a delayed email, I won't be missed until I don't show for work on Monday and that feels too long. I have delayed it until tomorrow lunch time. By then I should have passed.
I spent a lot of time on here lately reading others posts and making a few myself. It feels strange to know it's me making my farewell post to a bunch of strangers.
So this is my goodbye, to people I don't even know in a forum that barely knew me!