Sanva
:/
- Dec 10, 2021
- 261
I am in an intolerable amount of pain now & meds that were my last hope have just made things worse. I've been waiting to die for 8 years now.
Met this guy & was going to go on a date but I feel so shit physically that I can't bring myself to. So I'll ruin this too, whatever, it's all pointless anyway, I'm worthless bla bla bla I've written all of this a hundred times over and over and over.
I'm not depressed because life is meaningless, I don't care if my life has meaning or if it's significant in any way. I just want to feel okay, actually I'd quite like to live if I were healthy. But since that's impossible, I just want to ctb. The question is if I'm finally going to get off my ass & go through with it or if I'm going to let myself rot here for at least five or six more decades.
Met this guy & was going to go on a date but I feel so shit physically that I can't bring myself to. So I'll ruin this too, whatever, it's all pointless anyway, I'm worthless bla bla bla I've written all of this a hundred times over and over and over.
I'm not depressed because life is meaningless, I don't care if my life has meaning or if it's significant in any way. I just want to feel okay, actually I'd quite like to live if I were healthy. But since that's impossible, I just want to ctb. The question is if I'm finally going to get off my ass & go through with it or if I'm going to let myself rot here for at least five or six more decades.