Third Car in Three Years And I'm Going to Do it TONIGHT

[vacillating_ideation]

I've been going through the motions not wanting to be here but guilting myself or too afraid to take action. It's becoming clear upon the realization that I may be having to replace my third car in three years that life is backing me into a corner. I see this as an answer to my request for some sign as to whether I should do it or not. I think GOD is giving me the go ahead.

None of this is real. Why should I suffer for it? There's no one there. I'm not doing this for any particular reason. I'm not here anymore.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you're struggling - how can we help you? Here are some (((hugs))) in case you need them.

Your statements about life intrigue me: "none of this is real", but God is communicating directly to you. If you want to say more about your philosophy I'd love to hear.

(((More hugs)))