borderline-feline
Constantly Sleepy Catgirl
- Dec 28, 2022
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I don't think there's anything that can be done to change me. I'm too far gone, I feel like I'm losing my mind, I hate myself, and no one can change any of that. The biggest things at the forefront of my mind, the things that make me feel like I'm losing it, are things I can't talk to my psychiatrist about, and even if I could, he can't do anything about it. I'm afraid to even talk about it here since the last time I made a thread about this, it got massively derailed by a pro-lifer.
I should've known from the day that I was diagnosed with BPD that I would never be able to recover. Medication doesn't do enough to treat BPD, and therapy just doesn't work. I feel pathetic. I'm a worthless protoplasm crying over things that don't matter, and I just want to be able to die. I'm still holding onto resentment toward my mother for not aborting me. I wish I was never born.
I'm emotionally stunted and stuck at a mental age of 12 (or possibly 10) because of trauma, and there's not a day that I don't want to viciously beat that man to death as he pleads for his life for what he did to me. I'm not capable of "getting better", and I don't think I want to since I refuse to try to get to an adult mental age.
I should've known from the day that I was diagnosed with BPD that I would never be able to recover. Medication doesn't do enough to treat BPD, and therapy just doesn't work. I feel pathetic. I'm a worthless protoplasm crying over things that don't matter, and I just want to be able to die. I'm still holding onto resentment toward my mother for not aborting me. I wish I was never born.
I'm emotionally stunted and stuck at a mental age of 12 (or possibly 10) because of trauma, and there's not a day that I don't want to viciously beat that man to death as he pleads for his life for what he did to me. I'm not capable of "getting better", and I don't think I want to since I refuse to try to get to an adult mental age.
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