Thinking about trying with SN tonight

[Kokichi]

So this is probably really stupid because I don't have any antiemetics and I haven't fasted or anything, but this might be my only time completely alone for the foreseeable future, so I'm thinking I should just try to go for it while I have this opportunity. Thoughts? Concerns? Any input in general? I could probably try in a few days and prepare a little more, but I won't have the house completely to myself. I dunno. I'd appreciate any thoughts on the matter.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Okay personally I wouldn't do anything that I hadn't planned for. I don't want you to do anything impulsive. I don't want you to do something you aren't ready for. PM me, talk here, talk on chat, do whatever to sort out your thoughts. We are here for you if you need us. I am here for you if you need me. I don't think you sound 100% sure about it either but I could just be misinterpreting. Please feel free to talk to us or send me a pm lots of hugs

 

[moonsafari]

I'm going with SN without antiemetics/painkillers either, so good luck to you. I read depending from person to person some people might vomit but I'm totally fine with that(I'll have a bucket beside me! ) since I don't have access to antiemetics anyways. The decision's totally up to you. If you plan to do it and you don't have the house to yourself, would it work to take the SN before bed or sometime in the middle of the night when people are sleeping? I think that's how I'm going to do it.

Okay personally I wouldn't do anything that I hadn't planned for. I don't want you to do anything impulsive. I don't want you to do something you aren't ready for. PM me, talk here, talk on chat, do whatever to sort out your thoughts. We are here for you if you need us. I am here for you if you need me. I don't think you sound 100% sure about it either but I could just be misinterpreting. Please feel free to talk to us or send me a pm lots of hugs

Yes yes, I 100% agree. Definitely don't do it out of impulse just because you don't have the house to yourself for these few days. Please rethink before actually doing anything so soon...

 

[Kokichi]

Okay personally I wouldn't do anything that I hadn't planned for. I don't want you to do anything impulsive. I don't want you to do something you aren't ready for. PM me, talk here, talk on chat, do whatever to sort out your thoughts. We are here for you if you need us. I am here for you if you need me. I don't think you sound 100% sure about it either but I could just be misinterpreting. Please feel free to talk to us or send me a pm lots of hugs

Thank you very much. My SN just got here today and it made me get in a bit of a hurry to act. I doubt I'm actually going to do anything tonight because truth be told, I'm not at my own house tonight. I'm dog sitting lol. Which is why I probably sound hesitant. I wanted to post that thought anyway in case, but yeah I don't think I'm going to do it tonight, even though I kind of really feel like it.

 

[LMLN]

Don't do anything impulsive, it will only lead to suffering! Please plan ahead and be as prepared as you can.

 

[Idledays]

I second all of the above. Impulsiveness is tempting but can lead to suffering, mistakes and regret.

Death isn't going anywhere. There's no rush! Think this though to make sure that not only have you exhausted all other options (theres no other options after death so now is the time to take them!) , but that you aren't doing anything that could ultimately cause you more harm in the long run.

I hope you take care. There's people on this forum to help you through in the meantime.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

If you're waffling about being ready, then I don't think you're ready. Have you considered spending time journaling through the method, what it will be like to experience it, what would happen if you were rescued, what would happen if you died, etc.?

Also, and this is just my opinion, I would personally consider how it would impact the owners of the home where you're dogsitting. It would violate their safe, intimate, and sacred space. If you can't afford a hotel, then I would consider other locations that would have the least permanent impact on other people who know you and have to live in that space with the memories and the knowledge of what happened there.

I don't say this in a judgmental way, I'm just being direct and honest, but it doesn't seem like you've done much forward thinking, so that's going to reduce your confidence and your chances of success should ctb be the best and most appropriate decision for you.

 

[Kokichi]

Yeah now that it's been hours since I posted this I've come to realize how impulsive and silly that whole idea was in hindsight, and I'm in no way ready to do anything that drastic. I'm going to try to think about what my eventual ctb plan is for the future, but I'm definitely not ready yet.