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thehorizons

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Mar 25, 2026
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Does anyone do this? I'm ruminating about CTB a lot these days because I have oral cancer (next month I'll have biopsy to get something definitive) and post-acute withdrawal syndrome, but at the same time it causes me to think about the afterlife a lot. I've had spiritual experiences before and I definitely think there is soul after death. This seems like crazy talk to many and I don't blame the masses for thinking so.

For example, when I was a kid I had a feeling that someone was behind me watching me as I was sitting down at my computer, then I get a call that my grandfather passed away a few seconds later.

Moreover, there was a monk that was my family was close with. He wasn't a scammer or anything of the sort. He was an experienced practitioner of meditation and I believe he had powers that you couldn't even verify by science. He never asked for money and kept an extremely low profile (monks aren't meant to flaunt their powers, as it's considered a vice and just a byproduct of deep meditation). For example, he was asked to describe how the surgery went for the father of a family friend and to the astonishment of the family friend he knew exactly how many people were in the surgery room, what the layout of the room looked like, and how the building was like (this was even before we had computers and so-called mediums/tarot card readers). He often talked about seeing spirits out and about, and even mentioned seeing my great-grandfather before.

These stories make me believe there is life after death and there is a fate we are all walking on. It doesn't prove reincarnation is real or if there's a heaven/hell. Just curious if anyone has similar experiences or if you believe there is something afterwards.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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i don't believe there is any afterlife or reincarnation , just Non-existence forever after Death. to me Death = eternal Non-Existence

i think a human is just another animal, a brain, cells , chemical reactions, a machine.

i'm glad because Non-existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering pain that's a billion times worse than one can imagine

I think permanent Non-existence is a trillion times better than living.

1 reason out of many is that to me the constant worst pain outweighs pleasurable garbage by a billion times in intensity. also the worst pain can be constant and of long duration while the pleasure addictions are fleeting and meaningless. I can suffer unbearable pain only while alive or existing. I can never suffer if I don't exist
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
217
I am a firm believer of not trying to kid myself to know what I can not ever hope of knowing.

I have no idea what will wait for me on the other side. Maybe it will be bliss, maybe it will be terrible.

But I know what I feel on this side.
And I know that I can not go on like this in any way.

That is what keeps me from "fearing" what happens next
 
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WishfulNeanderthal

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Wishing for better times
Apr 18, 2025
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An afterlife is one of the core parts of my thinking when it comes to suicide. But the end result will always be "We cannot truly know". But if you want my opinion: The least likely afterlife is one built on human morals, why would a "god" or a force of nature care about our manmade morals that animals dont even follow? Hence there is only a couple of options (all decent IMO) regarding a logical afterlife.
1. Nothingness (No sense of pain, no thoughts, no sense of time, eternity flies by)
2. Something beyond what we can even imagine (Paradoxical, beyond human emotions, beyond pain/pleasure)
3. All of the religions afterlives exist due to the collective belief in it, and you go where you truly believe you should go (True belief = without any external or internal influence, objective truth).
4. Same as 3 but instead where you go is based on subjective beliefs on where you believe you should go, meaning it will change (since beliefs change with time).

Either way im not too worried about an afterlife or "going to hell". Reincarnation is a fear of course but it also wouldnt make sense to recycle human spirits/souls/conciousness since it would either have to be 1. random 2. non chronological (also doesnt make sense, because if its eternity then that means there's only 1 conciousness that is reincarnated through all lives), neither which sounds logical nor does the idea of "karma" make sense aswell.

Anyways thought i'd give my 2 cents on this.
 
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Abyss Dweller

Abyss Dweller

You look lonely...
Jul 29, 2025
128
Something good would be nice but to me its wishful thinking. There's nothing. Like how it was before you were born.
 
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Seneca65AD

Student
Oct 28, 2025
194
I think about this quite a lot. I'm fairly confident that a) there is an afterlife (i.e. a sense of consciousness); and b) that it ranges from peaceful all the way to amazing. I base my opinion on 2 sources of data - 1) quantum mechanics and conservation of energy principles; and 2) decades of reviewing near-death-experiences (years of suicidal tendencies tend to focus ones mind on what happens "after"....)

Anecdotally, my grandfather, the night before he passed, told my grandmother and an aunt that his 2 best friends had shown up and were going to help him go on a trip.

To be clear, I am not suggesting my view is the only correct one - or that it's correct at all; that would be very presumptious of me - nobody really knows. I am only stating what I believe and how I arrived there.