Thinking about surviving scares the shit out of me

[PeaceisallIwishfor]

I cannot fail this attempt, my worst fear is surviving. Please N come and not be intercepted, please I pray to get the meto, please don't let me wake up and be found. Please if there is a God, just let me go. I have suffered so much in this life and I have no idea how I can even make this life livable, I have tried everything. Every moment is torment.

 

[DoodleBug]

The prospects of permanently damaging yourself after an unsuccessful attempt is enough to send you into a deep hell of double-thinking. When nothing else seems to work in an already frail life, becoming even more frail send literal chills down my spine. That's why before my attempt I don't want any thoughts of hesitation. SI works in uncanny ways, not necessarily always manifesting itself by concise thoughts, yet if I recognize that it's still pulling the strings,, then I won't attempt to pull the plug just yet.

If everything works out in the end, then I wish you the safest and the most painless of passages, if your N either gets intercepted or something fails, then there's no shame in it. Always have a concise plan and don't leave things to an impulse - those only increase chances of survival. It is I, captain obvious.

I hope you find your peace regardless of what happens. Cheers.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

That's my fear too. I fear more surviving than death itself. But I think that when the time comes I won't give a fuck about surviving just hope for the best and plan the best as possible.

 

[passepar2t]

Same here. I want to do it by firearm and the thought of surviving as a brain damaged disfigured mess freaks me the fuck out since I won't get a second chance.

I hope your exit is certain and peaceful.

 

[Jeannine]

I get nauseous thinking of surviving. I have, before, but I'm scared this method I've been thinking about fails and I'm a vegetable. That's the last thing I want.

 

[Mizzmini45]

That's why it's taking me so long. I terrified of waking up in a worse situation

 

[mediocre]

I think we all fear this. No matter how many successful deaths there have been from both N and SN I always think but I could be the one that survives it. It's probably my survival instinct kicking in or I am just second-guessing myself.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Can relate. I would've tried so many things by now if i wasn't so aware of the consequences of failing.

I'm going to find a method and conquer all this fear.

 

[realjunes]

I cannot fail this attempt, my worst fear is surviving. Please N come and not be intercepted, please I pray to get the meto, please don't let me wake up and be found. Please if there is a God, just let me go. I have suffered so much in this life and I have no idea how I can even make this life livable, I have tried everything. Every moment is torment.

This is such a touching prayer, and I hope your prayers are granted. I will remember this simple but beautiful anguished plea. I want everlasting peace for you.

 

[56709]

If I fail my life will be the absolute worst-case scenario.
I will likely end up severely disfigured and disabled and unable to be productive again.

 

[Moonicide]

I'm reassured by all the people that have attempted the method I'll be using have never returned. There's very slim chance I'll survive. I have never attempted, because I wanted to make sure the first time was the last time. I'm not afraid, but I am anxious.

 

[LonelyLight]

Can u survive an attempt with N? I thought it was irreversible. Wishing you all the best

 

[PeaceisallIwishfor]

Can u survive an attempt with N? I thought it was irreversible. Wishing you all the best

I am afraid to be found and intervened, but hopefully that won't happen.

 

[LonelyLight]

I am afraid to be found and intervened, but hopefully that won't happen.

Oh I'm sorry I misunderstood

 

[PeaceisallIwishfor]

Oh I'm sorry I misunderstood

That's okay <3 I feel this is the right decision and everything will go smoothly, considering I got the prescription to Meto so easily.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I am afraid to be found and intervened, but hopefully that won't happen.

I don't think it can be reversed once taken- even if found?! Could be wrong - but I think there is no antidote.

 

[LonelyLight]

That's okay <3 I feel this is the right decision and everything will go smoothly, considering I got the prescription to Meto so easily.

Praying for you to find peace