Discussion Thinking about ending this shit tomorrow

[HowSoonIsNow]

If I skip this family lunch I'll have the entire day for myself. I already have my meto,sn,ibuprofen and antiacid the only thing holding me is the idea of my ugly corpse being found by my mom...she doesn't deserve it. I love her.
What you guys think? What would you do?

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Is there no way for you to get a hotel room?

 

[Ghost2211]

Is there a park near by? You could cover yourself with a blanket and people would assume it's a homeless person, so they would stay away.

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

Is there no way for you to get a hotel room?

I'll only receive my last payment in the middle of october

Is there a park near by? You could cover yourself with a blanket and people would assume it's a homeless person, so they would stay away.

Yes, there's a lot of places for homeless persons here but I'm afraid of throwing up and then someone decides to help me

 

[tidalwxves]

If I skip this family lunch I'll have the entire day for myself. I already have my meto,sn,ibuprofen and antiacid the only thing holding me is the idea of my ugly corpse being found by my mom...she doesn't deserve it. I love her.
What you guys think? What would you do?

This isn't something you have to rush, if your mom finding you is out of the question then it sounds like you don't have all the conditions necessary, I wouldn't if were you.

 

[PJFord]

Could you put a note on your closed bedroom door, alerting her to your body being inside, and asking her to call the authorities instead of entering?

From what I've read here, this is one of the top concerns that stalls CTB, the thought of stressing family members or roommates with unexpectedly discovering our bodies. You are a good person for thinking about this.

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

This isn't something you have to rush, if your mom finding you is out of the question then it sounds like you don't have all the conditions necessary, I wouldn't if were you.

I have all the items but I don't have a location :(

Could you put a note on your closed bedroom door, alerting her to your body being inside, and asking her to call the authorities instead of entering?

From what I've read here, this is one of the top concerns that stalls CTB, the thought of stressing family members or roommates with unexpectedly discovering our bodies. You are a good person for thinking about this.

I wonder if she'll open it anyways, I started to cry rn

 

[Ghost2211]

Could you put a note on your closed bedroom door, alerting her to your body being inside, and asking her to call the authorities instead of entering?

From what I've read here, this is one of the top concerns that stalls CTB, the thought of stressing family members or roommates with unexpectedly discovering our bodies. You are a good person for thinking about this.

As a mom I would go in anyway. I wouldn't be able to know my son/daughter is in there and not check the state of things.

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

As a mom I would go in anyway. I wouldn't be able to know my son/daughter is in there and not check the state of things.

I totally understand it :(

 

[PJFord]

True, the parental urge is strong. But the note could soften the discovery a bit, or at least give her a moment to prepare herself emotionally versus just walking in and being hit by the scene.

 

[Ghost2211]

I would do more research into your city. There must be some out of the way areas.

 

[Spitfire]

A better day could present itself in the future for you. Would it be worth it to wait on something like that to happen for you?

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

A better day could present itself in the future for you. Would it be worth it to wait on something like that to happen for you?

You're right, I can't do this to her... I'm sorry for wasting y'all time.

 

[Ghost2211]

You're right, I can't do this to her... I'm sorry for wasting y'all time.

It's not a waste of time

 

[Sinkinshyp]

You're right, I can't do this to her... I'm sorry for wasting y'all time.

it's not a waste of time at all. I'm a mom here because my son died in a car accident. I never saw him after the accident, I don't think I mentally could handle seeing him damaged. Even with a note on the door I would go in and be totally traumatized. I'm glad you've decided to wait. Find a park or hotel that way you don't cause your mom issues.

 

[MariV]

Could you put a note on your closed bedroom door,

ah...i had the same idea! "call the police, dont open the door"

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I think I'll follow you. I'm tired of this shit. It doesn't get better