NSFW Think I may ctb tonight - ingested SN

[LoupDeFeu]

No pain. Just dizzy. Lying down now. Can't stand.

 

[QuietEnd]

I hope you find peace

 

[keitaro]

hopefully you pass in peace.
let us know if you survive for some reason.

 

[LoupDeFeu]

hopefully you pass in peace.
let us know if you survive for some reason.

Thanks, I will be happy to help others if I can. I just wanted to tell people it does not hurt.

 

[keitaro]

Thanks, I will be happy to help others if I can. I just wanted to tell people it does not hurt.

that is thoughtful of you.
are you following the sn guide or just hoping for the best?

 

[melodrama]

I'm glad to hear this not painful. Sorry life has come to this point for you. You will be at peace soon.

 

[LoupDeFeu]

that is thoughtful of you.
are you following the sn guide or just hoping for the best?

I am following some of it. I took olanzapine for nausea, Valium for calmness, celebrex for potential pain/headache. I dissolved the suggested dose in 1/3 cup of water. I did not fast but I don't eat much.
Did not finish the water yet tho.

 

[andweallfloatonok]

goodbye, i hope you find peace and rest.

 

[keitaro]

yes, goodbye~

 

[london3]

No pain. Just dizzy. Lying down now. Can't stand.

I hope you find peace and your worries fade away

 

[LoupDeFeu]

I feel like I should have blacked out by now. Maybe need to keep drinking but I feel so dizzy.

 

[keitaro]

yeah, according to the guide you should be unconscious, but maybe it is different for different people.
it might help to drink more as long as you don't vomit, but idk.

 

[keitaro]

you still there?

 

[miserableforever]

I feel like I should have blacked out by now. Maybe need to keep drinking but I feel so dizzy.

Hope you're doing ok over there

 

[LoupDeFeu]

Does anyone know if it's still possible to ctb if I haven't passed out yet? Like maybe it will just take longer bc I wasn't able to drink all of it? My oxygen saturation has been between 65 - 80.

you still there?

Still here.

 

[keitaro]

the guide says: "The aim is to flood your bloodstream with the right amount of SN as quickly as possible so you do not feel any symptoms for any longer than you need to." so i assume one should drink all of it at once.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[keitaro]

how much did you drink?

 

[bed]

Does anyone know if it's still possible to ctb if I haven't passed out yet? Like maybe it will just take longer bc I wasn't able to drink all of it? My oxygen saturation has been between 65 - 80.

Still here.

oxygen levels between 65-80% are dangerously low, you will die without intervention. If you are unsure about this decision you still have time to call for help.

Values under 90% are considered dangerous, and values under 70% are life-threatening.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

What is the oxygen saturation to go unconscious?

 

[keitaro]

sounds like it will be successful, then.
goodbye, may you pass peacefully~

 

[bed]

What is the oxygen saturation to go unconscious?

not the thread to ask in, this is someone's life.

 

[LoupDeFeu]

I am still here. Damn it. Pulse ox still 80 after almost 4 hours.

 

[keitaro]

you're not in pain, i hope?

 

[LoupDeFeu]

how much did you drink?

I can't stand up to go check the cup - cup is not in same room as I am. Maybe 1/3 of the cup.

you're not in pain, i hope?

No pain, some nausea that passed. Just dizzy and weak, can't stand.

 

[keitaro]

i'm glad you aren't suffering any pain, at least.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

OP:
Is there a possibility that you could seek help now or when you're able to stand, even if you still want to ctb?

Was this a call for help or was it difficult to follow the guide(fasting/ingest whole?)? There's no shame in backing out now and I worry about you even if you don't suffer imminently. Tomorrow you may feel awful, even with assistance.

Or do you think tomorrow you will try again as soon as you are able? (sorry for so many questions at this time)

All:
(Usually people lose consciousness between 10-20 minutes. There was a big lad that I recall and it took them over an hour before presumed ctb, its possible they didn't ingest enough/didn't fast as well. In case you're having trouble keeping track of time it's been almost 3 hours and you don't seem to be exhibiting the usual symptoms of slurred typing.)

(Side note for everyone that read this: please don't ingest SN as a call for help, or "test" SN, many people have accidentally ctb before their time that way)

edit: misread as drank 1/3rd cup, read back and saw "didn't fast", however it also sounds as if possibility of not drinking whole
edit2: nvm I didn't misread at all, they did say that and 1/3 cup of water as well hence the confusion. OP(ko or asleep now as of last 3+ hours) you may survive due to 1/3 cup, unsure about the not fasting. - note to everyone else: I think 1/3 cup is still enough to cause ctb, with reduced odds.

OP:
If you read all this, let us know if you're ok. Whether it's now or tomorrow.

 

[london3]

I can't stand up to go check the cup - cup is not in same room as I am. Maybe 1/3 of the cup.

No pain, some nausea that passed. Just dizzy and weak, can't stand.

If you are still here it is always worthwhile to call the ambulance, no shame in changing your mind as your oxygen levels do seem low and it might be that you did not drink enough of the right SN strength?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I also think they could call an ambulance or go to a doctor clinic, they may not be able to determine the reason for low blood oxygen (multiple causes) but could give something to help with the symptoms of a failed attempt. I only know that the meto or overall regimen can cause akinesia & nausea for a few days from a previous survival, that person took everything as prescribed from the guide except the SN. I don't know whether OP took metos, but with taking the SN as well, it's probably more important.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that wherever you are now, you have found relief from your suffering. Best wishes in whatever you decide going forward. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you.

 

[Shivali]