Story They don't believe I'm being harrassed.

[MindFrog]

This neighborhood has been hell to me and my parents dont believe it until we got a camera installed.

They've been bullying me before I stopped going outside and continued to do so but everytime I talk to my family, they tell me I'm just "going crazy".

It's absurd. I got old and young people yelling outside how "stupid I am for being scared of people/unemployed/ single? or whatever script of the week they have. It's like someone's been feeding them info I dont tell anyone.

They knew the only time I eat and would peer thru the windows just to see.

The cam even caught some waiting outside my room window peeking in late hours but I put a mattress on it.

This month was the worst tho. Somehow they knew i've attempted and kept talking about how I should do it already. They even teach kids to say it infront of our house.

People I don't even know, that I don't even talk to. Somehow I've become the Town spectacle and they're waiting for my body to be carted outside.

But what do my parents say? Go to counseling! It's all in my head anyways right?

I'm so fucking tired of proving myself even right this moment. God if I had gun, I dont think I could only shoot myself anymore. I'm so fucking angry.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so horrible having to be around people like that, I hate how humans create so much harm. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[HighFlight]

I"m sorry people are treating you this way, especially your parents. @FuneralCryis right about humans creating so much harm. I hope you can find a way to let go of some of your anger and find some peace.

 

[DoomerPrince]

why people are so mean? i'm really understand you, but in my opinion you must get them back. be agressive and violnet if needed. when your'e quite they don't pay attention until it's too late. when you make noise, they will pay attention from my experience. even if they don't, you will feel good with yourself when you fight back. i was also bullied nonstop when i was a child. someday i decided that no one will ever going to bully me, and now i'm in state of mind that if someone will bother me or trys to bullie me i can kill him and feel good about it. the world is a shitty place, and i'm not happy with my mindstate, but i don't have other choises and i feel you're in situation like mine. you don't have to be extreme like me, but never let them bully you and be quite, hurt them as strong as you can and remember your feelings worth more than this motherfucker lives. stay strong my brother i wish you all the best.

 

[XXXWRLD]

Have you thought about telling your story in online mental health communities to get the opinions of peers? I know coming here helps me deal with my desire to ctb. I was also diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and going on the mental health and schizoaffective subreddits have helped me see what other people are going through, get advice and help see what may have worked or not worked for others.

I'm sorry your experiencing this and hope you get relief soon

 

[jessisme]

It sounds like paranoid schizophrenia and you should be on meds to help manage these symptoms of your perception that people are talking about you. It's a terrible mental illness that causes fear and discomfort like the kinds you are experiencing. You don't have to have these negative experiences forever. Visit a good psychiatrist and share with them what you shared with us here. Prescription medication will help you. I hope you will consider seeing a psychiatrist. It should bring you great relief. xo, j

 

[MindFrog]

Have you thought about telling your story in online mental health communities to get the opinions of peers? I know coming here helps me deal with my desire to ctb.

I'd look into it but I relate more to people with AVPD tbh. I hope you get well too. Having schizoaffective disorder seems rough, I can't imagine what kind of therapy/treatment you'd need to function.

It sounds like paranoid schizophrenia and you should be on meds

I got them on cam so I'm pretty sure I don't have schizophrenia. The cracks left from them chucking stones is also very real. I'm getting more paranoid tho I admit but I can still separate what voices are real somewhat.

People here are just terrible and I have autism so I get bullied alot. Maybe there's a person I've angered b4 but I don't know. This is just absurd and I don't like how I'm gonna ctb with people taking credit for it.

why people are so mean? i'm really understand you, but in my opinion you must get them back. be agressive and violnet if needed. when your'e quite they don't pay attention until it's too late. when you make noise, they will pay attention from my experience. even if they don't, you will feel good with yourself when you fight back. i was also bullied nonstop when i was a child. someday i decided that no one will ever going to bully me, and now i'm in state of mind that if someone will bother me or trys to bullie me i can kill him and feel good about it. the world is a shitty place, and i'm not happy with my mindstate, but i don't have other choises and i feel you're in situation like mine. you don't have to be extreme like me, but never let them bully you and be quite, hurt them as strong as you can and remember your feelings worth more than this motherfucker lives. stay strong my brother i wish you all the best.

I want to fight back. I really really want to but it's hard to do so when I know no one got my back when shit hits the fan. I feel violent almost and that scares me. I can't imagine what kind of people gets off to harrassing those deemed "lesser" but i guess it doesn't have an age bracket. Thank you I wish you the best too.

 

[dialogos]

I'd look into it but I relate more to people with AVPD tbh. I hope you get well too. Having schizoaffective disorder seems rough, I can't imagine what kind of therapy/treatment you'd need to function.


I got them on cam so I'm pretty sure I don't have schizophrenia. The cracks left from them chucking stones is also very real. I'm getting more paranoid tho I admit but I can still separate what voices are real somewhat.

People here are just terrible and I have autism so I get bullied alot. Maybe there's a person I've angered b4 but I don't know. This is just absurd and I don't like how I'm gonna ctb with people taking credit for it.


I want to fight back. I really really want to but it's hard to do so when I know no one got my back when shit hits the fan. I feel violent almost and that scares me. I can't imagine what kind of people gets off to harrassing those deemed "lesser" but i guess it doesn't have an age bracket. Thank you I wish you the best too.

Young and old people do this to you? Can you use your cellphone to record what they say? If they confront you, use your cp to record. This will make them cautious.

 

[DoomerPrince]

I'd look into it but I relate more to people with AVPD tbh. I hope you get well too. Having schizoaffective disorder seems rough, I can't imagine what kind of therapy/treatment you'd need to function.


I got them on cam so I'm pretty sure I don't have schizophrenia. The cracks left from them chucking stones is also very real. I'm getting more paranoid tho I admit but I can still separate what voices are real somewhat.

People here are just terrible and I have autism so I get bullied alot. Maybe there's a person I've angered b4 but I don't know. This is just absurd and I don't like how I'm gonna ctb with people taking credit for it.


I want to fight back. I really really want to but it's hard to do so when I know no one got my back when shit hits the fan. I feel violent almost and that scares me. I can't imagine what kind of people gets off to harrassing those deemed "lesser" but i guess it doesn't have an age bracket. Thank you I wish you the best too.

Bro only you can really fight for yourself, you should only trust yourself for situations like that. if you need get a pepper spray or even a knife. Not for hurting them, only for deter them. For example i have a knife in my car, and have a Pepper spray in my bag. I'm not a violent person or one who love to fight, I'm just prepared to every situation. You don't have to be strong physically, do what you should to cope. This is how the world works there is a lot of assholes out there and unfortunately we have to prepare for any situation.

 

[アホペンギン]

Its regrettable that you're being treated so poorly among the people in your neighborhood, especially your parents. I believe that humans only exist to create harm and distress and direct all their cold heartedness towards the vulnerable people. I hope you'll manage to find peace soon and possibly distance yourself even further from those people. I send you the most strength I can possibly gather and I send you my best regards.