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Circles
There's a difference between existing and living.
- Sep 3, 2018
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Apologies for making another pointless post of mine again today, I got a lot on my mind and need to let the steam out so to speak. I just don't know how to navigate the mental gymnastics of dealing with a dysfunctional family. It's that's simple yet just so fucking hard. Like I constantly compare myself and wonder how dysfunctional are most families? Is my family one of the worst? At this point I get seriously embarrassed and ashamed that I am part of something I can't control. You can't have the ability to choose the family you are born with. All I want is a peaceful drama free life but that's too much to ask for. They say blood may be thicker than water, but that what happens when that blood is poison? I feel an indescribable nausea almost existential that this is just how things are and you can't get any explanation as to why things are the way they are.