I wish there was a way the stars could align and the circumstances could be perfect for my CTB. The bitter truth is that there's never a perfect time. I just need to get over myself and do it.
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death137, Ramirez, BottomlessPit and 6 others
I'm totally in the same boat. Going to the forest to ctb a lot of the time I was like "today is too humid (chronic headache with heat too makes this annoying) and rain makes me not want to go because its uncomfortable to lay down.. just need to push myself and get on with it
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Largeletters, Ramirez, Ame and 2 others
I've had days where I strongly want led to do it but didn't have the means. Or days where I got ready to do it fully and backed out. But during my legitimate suicide attempt when I was 15, one night I randomly just had enough and went through with it. I imagine when I die it'll be the same. Some random day I'm just gonna do it.
Yes, it is hard to take our own lives. The SI can get in the way and many methods require significant time alone. I would love to just fall into an eternal sleep. I agree that there is never really a perfect time.
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