LuzurPhagget

LuzurPhagget

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Sep 15, 2019
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Yes. Hope... That mocking, taunting son of a bitch. Ha, jokes on you if you thought this was one of those empty, generic, bullshit, positive, feel-good, sappy posts!

But in all honesty, there is always that slight glimmer of hope. No situation is TRULY hopeless. But just because there is that SLIGHT possibility of things getting better, doesn't actually mean things WILL get better. Maybe it's just a chance to fail some more. To be dragged through the mud some more. To further add to my bag of bad memories. To further mess with my head. Etc. It's kind of a mean, insidious thing from a point of view.

Anyway, I don't have a date set in mind and I plan to go on as long as I can and urge others to do the same. I don't think me existing far beyond my past desired expiry dates have had that much of a monumental effect on anything (I don't think I'm responsible for the virus outbreak etc). I'll go when I'm ready.

And also, I've learned there are no absolutes in this life. Nothing is 100%. As sure as someone is about anything, it can only be 99.99999999 % etc and NEVER 100% (Correct me if I'm wrong). So when the day finally comes to ctb, I'll still be dying with that sliver of annoying-ass hope. What a life.
 
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GiveUp

GiveUp

Suicidal Spinster
Feb 18, 2020
70
I like this post! I like how raw and honest you are. Very raw. Acid humour.
I like you! What made you write this post?
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
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What is hope? Can you define it?

Nothing is 100%.

Depends... You can be a radical skeptic about everything. I accept as a likely enough possibility that I will die, but who knows? Maybe everyone is abducted at twenty-six years old by aliens and replaced with a genetically engineered mortal replica of oneself, to conceal the fact that humans are immortal and are harvested as slave labourers in the oil fields throughout the Galaxy.
 
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LuzurPhagget

LuzurPhagget

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Sep 15, 2019
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I like this post! I like how raw and honest you are. Very raw. Acid humour.
I like you! What made you write this post?

Aw, thanks mate!
What is hope? Can you define it?

Nothing is 100%.

Depends... You can be a radical skeptic about everything. I accept as a likely enough possibility that I will die, but who knows? Maybe everyone is abducted at twenty-six years old by aliens and replaced with a genetically engineered mortal replica of oneself, to conceal the fact that humans are immortal and are harvested as slave labourers in the oil fields throughout the Galaxy.

That's not out of the realm of possibility! Do you think the originals or the clones get probed in that situation? ;)
 
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I’mDone

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Mar 22, 2020
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Yes. Hope... That mocking, taunting son of a bitch. Ha, jokes on you if you thought this was one of those empty, generic, bullshit, positive, feel-good, sappy posts!

But in all honesty, there is always that slight glimmer of hope. No situation is TRULY hopeless. But just because there is that SLIGHT possibility of things getting better, doesn't actually mean things WILL get better. Maybe it's just a chance to fail some more. To be dragged through the mud some more. To further add to my bag of bad memories. To further mess with my head. Etc. It's kind of a mean, insidious thing from a point of view.

Anyway, I don't have a date set in mind and I plan to go on as long as I can and urge others to do the same. I don't think me existing far beyond my past desired expiry dates have had that much of a monumental effect on anything (I don't think I'm responsible for the virus outbreak etc). I'll go when I'm ready.

And also, I've learned there are no absolutes in this life. Nothing is 100%. As sure as someone is about anything, it can only be 99.99999999 % etc and NEVER 100% (Correct me if I'm wrong). So when the day finally comes to ctb, I'll still be dying with that sliver of annoying-ass hope. What a life.

Sorry but no. No hope whatsoever. Sure, I could soldier on and continue to exist. To force myself not to think of the hollowness inside, just going through the motions. But hope? No. I'm beyond fixing. I'm extremely adept at keeping the facade but I know. Deep inside, I know.
 
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HopeDiesLast

self-banned
Dec 28, 2019
254
Yes. Hope... That mocking, taunting son of a bitch. Ha, jokes on you if you thought this was one of those empty, generic, bullshit, positive, feel-good, sappy posts!

But in all honesty, there is always that slight glimmer of hope. No situation is TRULY hopeless. But just because there is that SLIGHT possibility of things getting better, doesn't actually mean things WILL get better. Maybe it's just a chance to fail some more. To be dragged through the mud some more. To further add to my bag of bad memories. To further mess with my head. Etc. It's kind of a mean, insidious thing from a point of view.

Anyway, I don't have a date set in mind and I plan to go on as long as I can and urge others to do the same. I don't think me existing far beyond my past desired expiry dates have had that much of a monumental effect on anything (I don't think I'm responsible for the virus outbreak etc). I'll go when I'm ready.

And also, I've learned there are no absolutes in this life. Nothing is 100%. As sure as someone is about anything, it can only be 99.99999999 % etc and NEVER 100% (Correct me if I'm wrong). So when the day finally comes to ctb, I'll still be dying with that sliver of annoying-ass hope. What a life.

Your post pretty much sums up the meaning behind my user name.

Hope dies last...a slow agonizing death...still holding on til the bitter (or sweet?) end. UGH!
 
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faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
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The only thing that is almost 100% is when you do a DNA test and you realize that your baby is nearly 100% from your neighbor who was having fun with your wife when you were at work. Otherwise probability is lower.
 
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Mizrable80

Mizrable80

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Mar 25, 2020
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What is hope? Can you define it?

Nothing is 100%.

Depends... You can be a radical skeptic about everything. I accept as a likely enough possibility that I will die, but who knows? Maybe everyone is abducted at twenty-six years old by aliens and replaced with a genetically engineered mortal replica of oneself, to conceal the fact that humans are immortal and are harvested as slave labourers in the oil fields throughout the Galaxy.
I'd love to see some extraterrestrials before I go.
 
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Epsilon0

Enlightened
Dec 28, 2019
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Hope is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops - at all -



Emily Dickinson
 
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NothingElseMatters

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Mar 30, 2020
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The only thing that is almost 100% is when you do a DNA test and you realize that your baby is nearly 100% from your neighbor who was having fun with your wife when you were at work. Otherwise probability is lower.
Happened to you?
 
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LuzurPhagget

LuzurPhagget

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Sep 15, 2019
288
The only thing that is almost 100% is when you do a DNA test and you realize that your baby is nearly 100% from your neighbor who was having fun with your wife when you were at work. Otherwise probability is lower.

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Hope is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops - at all -



Emily Dickinson

Aw, that's beautiful! I'd probably HATE to hear that in my darker moods though lol
 

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Actual footage of an antinatalist.
 
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Darkdreamer001

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Jul 17, 2018
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Sorry but no. No hope whatsoever. Sure, I could soldier on and continue to exist. To force myself not to think of the hollowness inside, just going through the motions. But hope? No. I'm beyond fixing. I'm extremely adept at keeping the facade but I know. Deep inside, I know.
I know my life is hopeless. I've got to the point that I can't fake it anymore. Life feels pointless and meaningless when I think about the future I start to have chest pain. I know deep down that suicide is the only way to get rid of the pain and it sucks to know that there's no other way especially when I've tried many time for manny years and nothing works ever...I guess for some of us...we're born to suffer so that others can live a good life whether they deserve it or not.
 
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sunny.sativa

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Apr 2, 2019
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I enjoyed this haha!

You sorta reflected on my cynical, comfortably doomed attitude like,"Everything sucks but.. who cares?"
 
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A heartfelt and astute post.

Almost nothing is certain.
We all exist somewhere under the normal curve and even that apple you throw in the air might not hit the ground if the meteor hits.
 
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Blackpoolbootz

If it sounds too good to be true it usually is.
Apr 19, 2020
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Always a glimmer of hope, what if someone had a brain injury that resulted loss of memory. But I get the point add some more to the bag of bad memories. Ruminations are a bugger
 
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InterstateFlowers

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Apr 16, 2020
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LMAO

God, I love this so much. Literally brightened my day. This website is literally my saving grace, oh my god. But I really do love these posts and your humor! Thank you!
 
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Despondent

Despondent

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Dec 20, 2019
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Haha, I clicked on the thread and thought that it was going to be the same "song and dance" that most pro-lifers do.. but it wasn't :haha:

I love this read ❤ Screw hope in my opinion. I was such a hopeful person a year ago, but then I had so much hope within me and nothing got better. All of it faded away, and now I'm hopeless lol
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
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Hope is that optimistic part of us that is not burdened with reality.
 
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disabledandhopeless

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Mar 1, 2020
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I like this thread.
 
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Arvinneedstodie

Arvinneedstodie

Existing is not living
Sep 17, 2018
198
we're born to suffer so that others can live a good life whether they deserve it or not.
Maybe that's it. Maybe that's the reason of it all. The universe seems to have a certain balance with everything. There is light because there is darkness. There is heat because there is cold. There is rich because there is poor. There is kindness because there is evil. So... There is misery because there is happiness and so on...

I hope this is true so that at least my suffering is not for nothing.
 
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truthseeker

Student
Sep 9, 2019
123
Depending on one's personal circumstances, for some there is no hope. Hope is great until it leads to nothing but continued suffering.Then it can become empty and meaningless, like someone saying "trust me, it will get better". Ignorance is bliss..
 
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Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
516
Hope is something abstract for me. Just a result of human process of thinking, something we create with our own mind. Yes, actually those pro-lifers right : there is always hope. Little do they know it does not mean anything will get better.
 
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Bct

Disqualified from Being Human
Apr 20, 2020
419
Nice thread! If there is a hope, I believe that hope means my life will be worse than this
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
I believe it's worse to tell someone there's no hope than there is. What do we know either way?
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
1,831
I think I might have broken my brain today trying to define hope on my daily walk.
 
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