LuzurPhagget
Experienced
- Sep 15, 2019
- 288
Yes. Hope... That mocking, taunting son of a bitch. Ha, jokes on you if you thought this was one of those empty, generic, bullshit, positive, feel-good, sappy posts!
But in all honesty, there is always that slight glimmer of hope. No situation is TRULY hopeless. But just because there is that SLIGHT possibility of things getting better, doesn't actually mean things WILL get better. Maybe it's just a chance to fail some more. To be dragged through the mud some more. To further add to my bag of bad memories. To further mess with my head. Etc. It's kind of a mean, insidious thing from a point of view.
Anyway, I don't have a date set in mind and I plan to go on as long as I can and urge others to do the same. I don't think me existing far beyond my past desired expiry dates have had that much of a monumental effect on anything (I don't think I'm responsible for the virus outbreak etc). I'll go when I'm ready.
And also, I've learned there are no absolutes in this life. Nothing is 100%. As sure as someone is about anything, it can only be 99.99999999 % etc and NEVER 100% (Correct me if I'm wrong). So when the day finally comes to ctb, I'll still be dying with that sliver of annoying-ass hope. What a life.
But in all honesty, there is always that slight glimmer of hope. No situation is TRULY hopeless. But just because there is that SLIGHT possibility of things getting better, doesn't actually mean things WILL get better. Maybe it's just a chance to fail some more. To be dragged through the mud some more. To further add to my bag of bad memories. To further mess with my head. Etc. It's kind of a mean, insidious thing from a point of view.
Anyway, I don't have a date set in mind and I plan to go on as long as I can and urge others to do the same. I don't think me existing far beyond my past desired expiry dates have had that much of a monumental effect on anything (I don't think I'm responsible for the virus outbreak etc). I'll go when I'm ready.
And also, I've learned there are no absolutes in this life. Nothing is 100%. As sure as someone is about anything, it can only be 99.99999999 % etc and NEVER 100% (Correct me if I'm wrong). So when the day finally comes to ctb, I'll still be dying with that sliver of annoying-ass hope. What a life.