Discussion There is no support out there currently, but what type of support would be helpful to you?

[Onomotopoeia]

I am struggling in a way I have not in a really, really long time. While I do currently and always have truly believed suicide is the right choice for me, i'm opting not to go that route for lack of a clear method with a high success rate. So, I am scouring the internet looking for support and honestly SS is the best I can come up with.

I don't really think SS is great for support though. Not a dig at the site, or its members. I just think that generally speaking me venting on a forum post once every few months, or even if i did it every day just does not really do much for me.

Part of my problem, or maybe its just the problem is that most of the support type things are things like crisis lines. Me talking to some 20 something idealistic toddler about why life sucks does not really help and then ofc there is the issue that someone decides i'm in crisis and I get locked up for a few weeks like a criminal for being sad.

Actual support groups seems few and far between, and seem to have the same traps of don't talk about being suicidal.

So, here I am looking for support and coming up empty. Is there anything out there you found helpful? If not, what exactly would be helpful to you?

 

[FuneralCry]

This thread definitely belongs in the recovery section of the forum, not here. But the only thing that would be helpful for me is a peaceful and reliable suicide method. That would literally solve all of my problems.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Is the recovery thread section here better for that sort of thing? Honestly, I'm not trying to recover- so I don't really know! Still, I would have thought the people there will be more keen on trying to make their lives better and may know of some good tools/support out there.

I guess I've gone through the whole self-help thing. Books like: 'Feel the Fear and do it Anyway' and Eckhart Tolle- 'The Power of Now.' Expect you've done all that though?

Honestly- what would help me would be a stable creative job that pays enough for me to get by on. I've got through before with that as my 'crutch' and I'm sure it would 'save' me again. That's me though- and I know that's maladjusted.

Sounds like you might want to try some actual therapy though- rather than just helplines. Do you know what's available in your area?

 

[lonely_k1d]

so many reasons i could list but probably if my parents loved me. way more and were richer,. lol

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Only truly sanctioned suicide.

 

[wait.what]

The thing I find most helpful about psyche wards isn't the staff and it certainly isn't the drugs. I like being able to exist near other humans without feeling obligated to fake cheerful chattiness as a way of being polite, or at least to avoid being viewed as a freak.

If I never again have to pretend to have "plans" over a weekend or holiday when I know damn well all I will be doing is lying in bed, it will be too soon. Total isolation sucks too, though. Doing stupid puzzles or whatever with someone else who is just as miserable is actually helpful. Unfortunately, it's not really safe to do that if one wrong word can get you hauled off to the loony bin—on a gurney if you're cooperative, in handcuffs if you're not. So for now, the relative anonymity of an Internet forum is necessary.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I have gone through a lot of mental health treatment: medications, inpatient admissions, outpatient programs…I struggle to find something helpful this time around. I would be open if there was something but unfortunately what usually happens is being forced into the psych hospital which is so largely unhelpful to me.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I think being able to talk about suicidal feelings openly without fear of involuntary hospitalisation would be a really good, not to mention simple, start to things.
Suicidal isn't illegal, but if you mention you're considering it, you get detained. Something there doesn't quite add up to me

 

[Leiden]

There's no support that could ever help me. There's nothing anyone could ever say or do that will change things for me. Everyone knows all I wish is to be dead. There's nothing they can do or say that will change anything.

 

[Rainy_days]

Can't think of anything. Almost always feel worse whenever I talk about my problems. And they're not fixable unless maybe through some drastic brain altering procedure, but I am too scared to do that - psych meds were bad enough. I guess having a house to live in permanently and not being at the mercy of landlords would help ease some anxiety.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I am looking for support and coming up empty.

What is support?

 

[SamTam33]

If someone hired me in a work-from-home role, paying 50k a year, I could go on faking the funk for a few years.

That's the only kind of support I need right now.

Nothing is going to extinguish the suicidal thoughts. Nothing.

But I can play along for awhile if I had a job.

I'm not asking for anything extravagant, but this world is such that I can't get the most basic requests fulfilled.

 

[leeloosnow]

I'm in a support group for "maladaptive behaviors", joined a long time ago b/c of my substance abuse, addictive behaviors. It's cbt, based secular approach. I've actually used their workbook tools in my ctb plans, lol. It's not a place to talk Abt ctb, but it can help with strategizing lots of life issues.

 

[escaped]

I guess being able to discuss it without being thrown into a poorly funded psych ward.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

The support to be allowed to be euthanized.

I am not interested in transitioning or any other trans support. If I can't have been born the correct sex from the beginning, I am not interested in sticking around.