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darkwater

Experienced
Apr 17, 2021
247
There seems to be no ground to hit it keeps going down. Strange how you always thought things were getting better. 15 years of misery and nothing is better things are as bad as never before. I'm probably one of the few here who doesn't want to die but it seems I will anyway.
 
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TheBroken

TheBroken

What Really Matters Anymore?
Feb 13, 2022
240
Agreed - good luck finding anything that's getting better.
 
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wilted_biography

wilted_biography

Member
Jun 11, 2022
30
Yep…that's what seems to be so terrifying. There's no limits to suffering. Truly horrific
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
I feel this too much. There never seems to be bottom to the darkness of life and suffering
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
Yes. Things can get worse. I am so sorry you're struggling. Hope they get better soon. I'm struggling too this is a nightmare.
 
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ready_to_go

Member
Jun 21, 2022
8
I understand….rock bottom seems to be this fictitious concept that never surfaces. Every time I think I've hit it, the floor collapses once more and reveals another cavern below me.

I also understand not wanting to die. I do not want to die. I want my life to be better and I have gone to extreme lengths to try, but not every situation can be solved. For me the pain is too great, but I hope that you and anyone else here is able to find the strength….and that their situation doesn't box them in like mine has.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
Ain't that the truth.
 
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nys

nys

mors mihi lucrum
Jun 1, 2022
269
I understand that. Ppl are always like "dw it'll get better!" but it doesn't get better, at least not for evryone. When I think things literally cannot get worse bc its just not possible, they somehow do get worse, but never better. It feels like things are just gonna keep getting worse & worse the longer I'm alive ): But I hope things improve for me even tho its probably never gonna happen. Sorry that youre going through this & I hope your life gets better
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
Yep and this is exactly why I hate it when people say "when you're at the bottom, the only way you can go is up". Naively thinking there is a bottom at all.
 
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Adrenalineaddict

Member
Jun 27, 2022
30
Just when you've hit rock bottom, you then find out rock bottom has a basement. If I meet God on the other side, I'll tell him I've already done purgatory several times over.
 
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Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
682
I think about this too much. My world has ended so many times, and I always think "it can't get any worse" and it always does.

These last couple of months, I feel like I've been at my lowest, then I remembered this isn't even the worst of what's to come. One day, I'll have to deal with my parents and my cat passing away…I've never lost anyone close to me, so I can only imagine how much that'll destroy what's left of my mental state. Then there's that fear of continuing to get older, and still not being settled. I don't know what's going to happen to me.

It's terrifying. To feel like your world has totally crumbled around you, and the worst of what's happened to you, isn't even close to the tip of the iceberg.

Super conflicting on deciding on if you just should stay and see what happens, or check out before the worst can play out.
 
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Slimetae

Slimeent🎲
Apr 23, 2022
211
Always a new rock bottom for me when i thought it couldn't get any worse hope shit gets better for u tho.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,089
The fact that suffering has no limits is why life is so horrifying. The fact that things are likely to get much worse is part of why I want to be gone so much. Life is extremely cruel and unfair and it is awful how humans have to endure so much pain in their lives. A peaceful exit should be a human right, nobody should be forced to live a life that they do not see as being worth living and just gets worse and worse.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I met a homeless person yesterday And Was reminded that things can and will get much worse
 
MisFortunate

MisFortunate

Member
May 19, 2022
31
Life has never gotten better for me. I am just a bowl of slow rotting fruit.
 
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HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

Experienced
Jun 22, 2022
247
There seems to be no ground to hit it keeps going down. Strange how you always thought things were getting better. 15 years of misery and nothing is better things are as bad as never before. I'm probably one of the few here who doesn't want to die but it seems I will anyway.
i don't want to die, i want the pain to go away so i can enjoy my life, but the chronic pain won't go away, and i can't cope with this shit anymore, so i feel i have to go to sleep forever - i would have anyway, just like everyone does, but i didn't think it would be at 40 and i thought i'd have done something to be proud of first
 
LowLevelChimp

LowLevelChimp

Just your average pos
Jul 18, 2022
62
These are indeed crazy times, the ground is shifting everyday. I once thought that recovery and normal life could be possible.
 
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