I am so frustrated that the only serious way for me to ctb, is to wait until I can immigrate to America and put a shotgun to my head. It's so difficult to put on an act to my family & act like a 'normal' human being. Whatever happens in life, I know that I don't want children. Why would you pass on life & prolong the suffering? I'll settle for being an academic & living off my parents money.
I feel you bro, I feel you.
I'm in your shoes too. Although I plan to get SN or gun here in Argentina. It'll be more difficult but there's no other choice.
I wish I could be a normy, but I can't.
@WornOutLife, Thanks for the kind words. I don't think I could cope as a normie, either. I'm too difficult & cynical. Based on my own conscious experience, life is suffering. That much, I am sure of. Take a look at this article. I think it sums it up quite well.
www.psychologytoday.com
Existence is Suffering
Perhaps, beneath everything, there is inescapable pain.
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