ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
- 767
this place is so toxic. yet i can't get out of here. the more I try to plan and leave, the more distressed i get.
nobody stands me anymore. and i can't stand anyone in here either. they are mad at me, for not being able to function, for not helping, for not studying, for spending so much money.
should I run away or should I die? and how to leave when you are chained? the mental barriers are the worst one. i can't leave. everything pushes me back. money, feelings, resources, a stable mind and so on.
i think i never got so distressed in my whole life and i can't work out on a plan to escape this hell. my head aches so much. my body hurts all over. i am nauseous. i can't sleep. i can't concentrate.
to be fair i can only be alone when i lock myself in the bathroom. and even then I'm not expected to stay long. im so fucking tired. dont bother leaving comments, i appreciate it but I can't follow anything. I'm so lost. I'll end up with cbt out of options cause i can't handle this hell anymore. i feel like my mind is consuming itself.
nobody stands me anymore. and i can't stand anyone in here either. they are mad at me, for not being able to function, for not helping, for not studying, for spending so much money.
should I run away or should I die? and how to leave when you are chained? the mental barriers are the worst one. i can't leave. everything pushes me back. money, feelings, resources, a stable mind and so on.
i think i never got so distressed in my whole life and i can't work out on a plan to escape this hell. my head aches so much. my body hurts all over. i am nauseous. i can't sleep. i can't concentrate.
to be fair i can only be alone when i lock myself in the bathroom. and even then I'm not expected to stay long. im so fucking tired. dont bother leaving comments, i appreciate it but I can't follow anything. I'm so lost. I'll end up with cbt out of options cause i can't handle this hell anymore. i feel like my mind is consuming itself.