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HayBunny23
GuiltyLittleBunny
- Feb 15, 2023
- 65
Life is so silly, and it rewards horrible behavior. Only the people who can lie to themselves seem happy. People do horrible things and then don't even think more about it than a person stepping on an ant.
I always think to myself, why am I so guilty all the time when people walk around, literal monsters, rabid bipedal apes, constantly seeking to fulfill the greed in their heart?
People will always do what they think they can get away with; Legally, but also mentally. I can't live with guilt at all, it eats me up. Even though I can make accurate logical argument about how I'm better, I'm not. I wish that I could so get away with it. I wish I could get away with all the same horrible things these people do. I can't though, the guilt is my master, and I obey.
I dream of becoming more animalistic. Like an animal, I'll live not worrying about what my existence means. No guilt for doing natural things for my own survival. No other animals making me feel guilty for wanting to survive.... just experience and instinct. I dream of being some wild animal. All my instincts and human desire involves building a big nest, shoving my mate and my babies in there, and clawing anything that comes near it. My Stoopid human brain says that's dumb, you want to die instead.
I think id be happier if I just listened to my dumb animal brain, but my dumb hooman brain is too much of a small peen energy boi to accept we are animals and aren't better.. we aren't better and we don't know better.
It's easier to accept it about other people than myself. I look at the evil things people do and just go "what do you expect from an animal?" but myself? Nope, unforgivable, I'm a smart human that knows better than most humans and I'm "better than everyone else" apparently, so my flaws are unforgivable purposefully malicious acts to do harm.
I can't even live with the guilt of asking or needing basic things for survival. My hubby loves making me food but I feel guilty for him doing it. I feel guilty for being alive, guilty for wanting to die. I feel guilty that I'm sick, that I need help. I feel guilty I'm so lazy and entitled. I feel like a complete waste of time, space, and energy. I'm just pointless and I should die.
I always think to myself, why am I so guilty all the time when people walk around, literal monsters, rabid bipedal apes, constantly seeking to fulfill the greed in their heart?
People will always do what they think they can get away with; Legally, but also mentally. I can't live with guilt at all, it eats me up. Even though I can make accurate logical argument about how I'm better, I'm not. I wish that I could so get away with it. I wish I could get away with all the same horrible things these people do. I can't though, the guilt is my master, and I obey.
I dream of becoming more animalistic. Like an animal, I'll live not worrying about what my existence means. No guilt for doing natural things for my own survival. No other animals making me feel guilty for wanting to survive.... just experience and instinct. I dream of being some wild animal. All my instincts and human desire involves building a big nest, shoving my mate and my babies in there, and clawing anything that comes near it. My Stoopid human brain says that's dumb, you want to die instead.
I think id be happier if I just listened to my dumb animal brain, but my dumb hooman brain is too much of a small peen energy boi to accept we are animals and aren't better.. we aren't better and we don't know better.
It's easier to accept it about other people than myself. I look at the evil things people do and just go "what do you expect from an animal?" but myself? Nope, unforgivable, I'm a smart human that knows better than most humans and I'm "better than everyone else" apparently, so my flaws are unforgivable purposefully malicious acts to do harm.
I can't even live with the guilt of asking or needing basic things for survival. My hubby loves making me food but I feel guilty for him doing it. I feel guilty for being alive, guilty for wanting to die. I feel guilty that I'm sick, that I need help. I feel guilty I'm so lazy and entitled. I feel like a complete waste of time, space, and energy. I'm just pointless and I should die.
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