Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
Oct 26, 2019
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There back. and pesecuting me daily, like non-stop. I'm making due. I think I've seen through there plans...it's just to try to drain me financially and rob me of my peace. It's all pretty absurd and evil. They want to take my money by propelling me to drink daily...just this cheap scape trick. And to try to keep me mentally flabergasted so I have no desire or energy to do anything that I want. It's really about trying to rob someone of life. It's evil...and I know it's coming from a higher-powered entity. It's basically over with. This little bitch honestly thinks it has power or like something? Like i made eye-contact with a manager the other day after saying "fuck you" in my head to it basically after it tried to threaten hell or act like it could throw me there. Dude...fuck this entity/being entirely. If i do end of taking SN i know yall will be there with me until the end and like I'm not too worried about it. I've done DXM enough times to experience the horrible vomiting and all of that shit, passing out on the floor afterwards...and i was barely 18. It's all pathetic and I'm over it. Vengeance will be mine. Even if I have to live the remainder of my life being tormented by this stupid bullshit, I will not die in some crazy destructive end. It will be quite peacefully. But it's forever. My soul is going to disappear forever. Fucking endorsing this bullshit existence or whatever they want to call it. And so I guess I'm just biding time until the end. I'm supposed to get myself a guitar for Christmas or something...? It's just over with. All this inhumane/just non-human shit is going to end. You don't do this type of shit to people....stealing them of there privacy...trying to exploit them to play off some pressured-psuedo thought processes that aren't really true or accurate or the real raw reality/bluntness of the truth.

It's just other with...and I'm basically waiting for this dream to end. What a crazy fucking being though....

If it thinks it can send me to a hell of burning in a lake of fire for all eternity I encourage it to try, If your that powerful and beyond human limitations then by all means DO IT! It seems unfathomable and unbearable and supremely evil but by all means I give you the ticket to do it.

Because If i'm given the chance you will be shown no-mercy. I will beat you to death like your a five year old with a crowbar in an abandoned ally, unrelenting until you die.

Or i'll just disappear forever.

Point being said. I'm not forgiving this. and if you believe your a "God" or whatever or worth anything then by all means send me to hell. But personally, I would murder you like you were a child in the cruelest fashion and have my peaceful exit from this existence forever.

Just had to let that out.
 
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