TSCursor
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- May 18, 2020
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Hi, this is my first post here, honestly i don't know where to start, i just have to say that i have been developing a sort kind of voice in my head through time, its not schizophrenia... he has been giving me orders to do, insulting me, contradicting me, lately he has been suggesting to end my life soon, without thinking about my family, my friends, new people that I met, he also reminds me that I shouldnt trust them and that they will end up betraying me and hurting me. I have been doing some "exercises" that he asked me to do, like scratching my arm with my nails or a razor, hitting my head against the wall, taking many caffeinated ibuprofen pills. I try not to be so notorious, I'm just getting much more used to the pain, to not feel anything when the time comes.
I know i wont be able to have a future, stability, tranquility, a good job, a pure love. Because he always reminds me of it. but I still have chances?
I know i wont be able to have a future, stability, tranquility, a good job, a pure love. Because he always reminds me of it. but I still have chances?