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WornOutLife
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- Mar 22, 2020
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Okay, I've survived one more week in spite of experiencing lots of suicidal thoughts, anxiety and almost panic attacks every single day.
I'm being a productive human being again and many people are proud of me because they know I wanted to ctb last year and that I had even become a NEET for almost 3 years.
However, I'm still suicidal. Fighting everyday is exhausting!!!!! How can normal people do this until they're 80!!!!?
I don't know how much longer I'll be able to keep on fighting but I don't wanna ruin my dad's life and it would be awesome to experience some epic stuff before leaving this world such as visiting the country of my dreams: Japan!!
I just don't know what's gonna happen with me!!
Can anyone relate? Anybody else who's losing their way, confused, lost, etc?
I'm being a productive human being again and many people are proud of me because they know I wanted to ctb last year and that I had even become a NEET for almost 3 years.
However, I'm still suicidal. Fighting everyday is exhausting!!!!! How can normal people do this until they're 80!!!!?
I don't know how much longer I'll be able to keep on fighting but I don't wanna ruin my dad's life and it would be awesome to experience some epic stuff before leaving this world such as visiting the country of my dreams: Japan!!
I just don't know what's gonna happen with me!!
Can anyone relate? Anybody else who's losing their way, confused, lost, etc?
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