The time has come for me to go, I'll be using SN as my primary method. Hopefully this is farewell.

[FrankieVallie]

Hello Everyone,
I think that today is the day I'll finally go. Some of you may have seen my posts before from a few months ago (August); some of you may have never seen me before.

Primary method: SN (as per Stan's guide, I have read extensively on this method)
Thread from last August (August 21, 2020): https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-to-go-up-or-to-end-myself.46262/#post-837705

Last August, I posted a thread where I discussed being at the crossroads of committing suicide. Now, almost 2 months later, I've made up my mind for good. Today is the day I'm leaving. I fought as hard as I could and tried my best to get myself out of this situation but today I find myself with suicide as my best and only option. I have tried everything else imaginable and none of them have gotten me anywhere except back to where I've started. I have thought deeply about this decision for a year now so I'm not just doing this on a whim.

I simply cannot bear this world and its pain anymore. Am I strong enough to keep fighting? Absolutely. However, I have no reason to fight anymore. Why continue to fight a battle you already lost?

I could spend a long time discussing my personal story but I honestly don't have the energy left in me to elaborate on it. Unending hurt, misery, work, and lonliness are the only true things I've seen and known in this damn world. They and death are the only guarantees in life. All other emotions and feelings are ultimately either based on self-deception, evil, or naivety.

It is currently 1:30 PM where I live at the time of posting this. The cold, bleak, gloomy fall weather outside today perfectly mirrors my mind and life. I have to suffer through a few more meaningless hours of academic work and getting yelled at until it's night and my parents are asleep (around 10:30 PM). After I'm sure they're asleep, I will then send an update to this post and begin the SN process in earnest.

It is now time to experience what will very likely be my last hours on Earth here with you.

Note - Mods/Administrators, if I do not post anything else within the next few days, I will very likely be on the other side. Feel free to ban my account and add me to the list of successful SN suicides if you wish.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you a smooth passing, and the peace you need. Everything you say resonates with me

 

[TripleA]

I wish you eternal peace

 

[Lux]

Best wishes to you! I hope you find what you're looking for.

You should make your last hours as enjoyable as possible if you can.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I wish you an easy ride and peace on the other side. Enjoy your final hours, our thoughts will be with you throughout your journey.

 

[Symbiote]

Sleep well fellow SS member.

 

[There Look! Nothing]

See you there soon, bud.

 

[Metalhead]

I feel like it could have been me that wrote your post, I agree with you so much, this world plain and simply sucks if you ask me. I hope that whichever path you choose that you will find peace, safe travels my friend see you on the flipside.

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

May you find peace, I hope it'll be fast and painless.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

I will pray for a peaceful journey for you

I hope you find peace, friend<3

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[Rn110bg101]

Good night, I hope you'll be at peace.

 

[TrailerTrash]

@FrankieVallie .... your post has a section that perfectly describes my perspective ...... "I simply cannot bear this world and its pain anymore. Am I strong enough to keep fighting? Absolutely. However, I have no reason to fight anymore. Why continue to fight a battle you already lost?"

We're here no matter what you decide, just wanted you to know how much I fully get where you're coming from ......

 

[willitpass]

i hope you find peace in whatever you decide

 

[Deathbydemo]

I feel your pain so much. I hope you find the peace you were cruelly denied in this life. Safe travels.

 

[Meditation guide]

I hope this goes well for you. I'm sure it will. May you have an easy journey.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

I hope you find what you're looking for :)

 

[whywere]

Hope you have a safe, fast and pleasant journey. Love to you my fellow family member.

 

[death137]

I hope you find peace

 

[Silvermorning]

See you in eternity,

if you change your mind we'll be here for you anyway.

 

[CrazyMary]

Good luck, see you on the other side

 

[NightmareTour]

I hope your journey is fast, easy and painless, and I hope you find peace on the other side.

 

[Deathwish1968]

There is no freedom from unrelenting pain and suffering in this world. I hope you have a painless transition to a better world.

 

[Disappointered]

Wishing you eternal peace.

 

[HelloHell]

I wish you a peaceful and painless journey. Good luck!

 

[SheJumped]

May you have a peaceful journey as you catch the bus.

 

[OccydePoes]

This little candle burns for you to this night. I hope it's light guides you to love and peace

 

[Ghost2211]

I hope you find peace, swift travels.

 

[Regen]

I don't know you and I never read one of your posts in the past. But your text touches my heart very much. You seem to me like an interesting person and the way you write sounds deeply sad. I wish you eternal peace and above all the feeling of being loved and belonging. No more pain. No more loneliness. Go in peace.

 

[TripleA]

Thas somebody know is he gone?