Venting The thought of falling asleep forever really is something that is beautiful to me.

[FuneralCry]

To me there would be nothing more ideal than just being able to peacefully pass away and sleep for all eternity where this existence would be long forgotten about, I see so much beauty in the thought of returning to the state of ideal nothingness.

This is why it disgusts me how methods like Nembutal are denied from us with suicide being so unnecessarily complicated and difficult, as it's undeniably true that suicide is the ultimate form of self care, I could never believe in any fictional afterlife theories, instead I believe death to be nothingness with all problems solved, all future suffering prevented where I won't even be aware of the fact that I'm gone and there could never be anything more ideal than this.

The thought of being gone from this world is such a beautiful thing to me as I view life in itself as being the true problem, existing is something harmful, filled with risks, tedious, unappealing, futile and unnecessary, there is nothing to be gained by something so worthless as existing.

I see the existence of life as being an cruel mistake that never need to exist, when complete nothingness is perfection then of course the fact that life exists is something so incredibly tragic. I see existence as being a burden, it's something so cruel how we were forced here into a hellish and chaotic world where we have little control over our existence, where chance so cruelly determines everything, as humans we are only destined only to decay from age with everything in life just being a meaningless and worthless distraction from the fate that we are destined for.


There are no amount of words that can describe how much I despise existing, nothingness is all that I've ever really wished for and I certainly believe that as humans we deserve the option to just pass away in peace without struggle, none of us should feel trapped here in a cycle of endless suffering. Non existence truly is beautiful and suicide seems like the most logical thing to wish for to me, when the alternative is being a slave to a decaying flesh prison with unlimited potential for one to end up being tormented. Simply just being aware of the reality of this existence makes the thought of eternal sleep sound so appealing, there really is far too much unnecessary suffering in this hellish world.

 

[Source Energy]

Can you get SN? Idk where you live but many people from different parts of the world got it. There must be a source...
I too would prefer N but who knows if it ever becomes available again?
Wouldn't you want to try out SN instead of suffering for decades? Gawd, even the thought is scary...

 

[Gonnerr]

We are here without our consent and we are kept here without our consent. That's about it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Can you get SN? Idk where you live but many people from different parts of the world got it. There must be a source...
I too would prefer N but who knows if it ever becomes available again?
Wouldn't you want to try out SN instead of suffering for decades? Gawd, even the thought is scary...

The problem is that SN is becoming more and more unavailable as time goes on, it's not easy to order ctb materials in the first place because of all the risks, secrecy, restrictions and complications etc, but now I think that nobody in my country can get SN at all for ctb, It's just the unfortunate reality that suicide really isn't straightforward.

 

[lukas19]

The problem is that SN is becoming more and more unavailable as time goes on, it's not easy to order ctb materials in the first place because of all the risks, secrecy, restrictions and complications etc, but now I think that nobody in my country can get SN at all for ctb, It's just the unfortunate reality that suicide really isn't straightforward.

From the recent posts CCS is down, looks like SN will no longer be an opinion.

 

[tiny_dancer]

I'm sorry that you aren't able to have access to what you'd need to get what you so badly wish for. It would be nice to just fall asleep and forget it all.

 

[SilentSadness]

I also want nothing more than to die, living is futile and pointless. It is tragic how suicide is denied and it seems so unnecessary for it to be. I think people just enjoy abusing others and don't want people to ctb as they will no longer be abusable. Of course this society is anti-freedom, and those who continue to deny the choice of ctb are causing such horrific damage to people who just want a peaceful death.

 

[letsalllovelain:3]

Yeah, I also kinda agree that we could all just cease. I've thought for quite a long time that humanity is the biggest mistake of nature. Eternal sleep has been a dream for me since I was 12. I've been also wondering if society wants to be so anti-freedom for sake of capitalism. Fuck capitalism. And fuck humanity as well.

 

[ArchmagePrincess]

It really is a beautiful concept. Sometimes when I'm fearing death I fall asleep and the next morning I ask myself: was anything wrong with that? Of course, I say no because being unconscious is wonderful, there is no suffering while you have a dreamless sleep.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I love the thought of peacefully being sedated, being able to let go of everything in this world. Nothing matters anymore, I can really be alive - I don't need to worry about anything, after all it doesn't matter anymore.

 

[unplug]

To think most of us won't get that wish. A sad reality we have to endure.

 

[leavingsoon99]

This life is nothing short of hell. We're here against our will. We were brought here without consent. I really hate life. I agree that a more humane way to exit this world should be available to ALL. Regardless of income, debt, or anything. No one asked to be here. No one should be obligated to stay here.